Keli

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Keli
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Tue, 09-20-2005 - 11:22am

Keli...I know you don't want to do the EMDR and right now you shouldn't because you are not stable enough. That is a process that will cause alot of emotions as you probably aready know. The thoughts of the SA probably comes and goes. Right now you are probably feeling that it is the least of your worries...the SA, but honey, it really isn't the least. However, you do need to get more stablized before you and your pdoc can even think about the EMDR process. I know how being SA can make you feel devalued and shameful. Well there is alot of feelings that go with being SA. The feelings you have even if stuffed way down affect us everyday in the way we think of ourselves and life in general not to mention other people. The important thing is feeling better about ourselves and feeling like we are worthy. SA takes so much from us. I guess what I am saying is I hope you consider doing it after you are stable. I think it may help alot. I don't know of course because I am far from being a doctor, but I just want you to feel better and if this will help you then great. Maybe the PTSD is something you can elimidate alittle with the EMDR. At least that is the purpose.

I hope I didn't overstep here. Maybe I am way off.

Hang in there...I love you

Tina~

 
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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: firelightshimmer
Wed, 09-21-2005 - 8:33am

Thanks, Tina. I appreciate you so much. You didn't overstep and you're right on target. I have to do the emdr now. I have to get it done and over with. As much as I don't want to. In order to GET stable, I have to do it. I have to deal with it.

Sucks.

I hope the Lamictal works...Its going to take about 2 months to get up to 100 mgs, she's moving me up even more slowly than usual. But, hopefully, it will work. I just can't take much more.

How are YOU doing?

Love you,

Keli