the last straw

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Registered: 03-25-2003
the last straw
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Tue, 09-20-2005 - 3:19pm
(& i'll be surprised if this posts cause it took forever to get on.
on the ride home the kids ballon flew out the open car window...well GUESS WHO'S FAULT IT WAS?
if you guessed ME you won the grand prize.
i immediately lost my mind.now that i realized who heard me i should be embarrassed but i'm not.
you also know you're past numb when someone you are dying to tell off calls & you just don't even pick up the phone.
there is nothing left of me.
i told my kids icannot stand to look at them & if they don't even wanna wash their hands like i repeatedly ask em to they don't have to.they can get sick & sit in their own puke,
i'm TIRED OF EVERYTHING BEING MY FAULT>
well...tomorrow i gotta show for jury duty & on sat my h leaves for las vegas so any hospitalization is just not convenient or pc.
i wish i could just wish myself to death.
i'm angry enough that i actuallyfeel like calling that jerk who's calls i avoided for the last few days to tell him...if he's calling to see if i'm allright that nice but if he's still calling to see if the cure is inside my pants maybe i should take it up w/ his wife.
well...it's back to vodka & klonopin for now b'c for the next few nights its out of the question.
maybe if i din't even think about losing weight it'll come off.i'm too tired to think of anything &the only people who get the brunt of it cause they CAN & then they tell daddy is my poor kids.
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Tue, 09-20-2005 - 3:49pm

I WON THE GRAND PRIZE !!!

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Tue, 09-20-2005 - 4:16pm
please be my friends.i don't know how to keeo any
(byw i did leave a message for mr can't6 keep it in his pants that if he wascalling to ask me how i am that's fine..BUT if he was calling for any other reason to shove it.i have no rooom for this inmy life.
just hope i dialed the right number
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Tue, 09-20-2005 - 4:37pm

we will always be your friend !!!!


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