It has been a rough day
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It has been a rough day
| Thu, 09-22-2005 - 6:55pm |
As of today my mom will have been passed away a month. I think about her all the time but today was really hard. Actually this week has been really hard. I have had a hard time sleeping because I can't stop thinking about her. I just want what I can't have and that is to have her back living so I can see her and talk with her. The pain is so deep and it is killing me. I miss her sooooo much.
I went to the doctors today(my urologist) and I have three kidney stones that they can see from the CT scan. They made me go to get another X-ray done and they couldn't see what they needed to see on that one so now I need to get a IVP done. This is where they inject dye in you to see every little thing with the kidney.

tina,
i feel your pain about your mom. november will mark 2 years since i lost my dad. he and i were as close as you and your mom. i'm not sure how it does, but it does get easier. it is true what i was told, unfortunately, that the first year is the hardest. it's not fair that this happened and i think being bp it compounds it. i was just telling tdoc yesterday that dad has been on my mind a lot again recently. i suppose its got to do with the anniversary coming up and theres other factors that tdoc pointed out too. but the thing is as hard and painful as it is, our parents would want us to go on.
as for the kidney stones, i hope they find all of them and get rid of them quickly for you. i don't know what all is involved, but i do know they are painful. so you take care of you, do what needs to be done to resolve them, and focus on you.
i wish i had more right now for you. sending you hugs and p & pt though.
hugs,
traci
Hey Tina,
I'm sorry you're having a rough week...I know how bad that sucks...well, I know part of how bad that sucks...I can only imagine how bad it is for you, missing your mom so much. You know, you can still talk to her. I know some people might think that's odd, but who cares? I'm sure you know all that, but I just wanted to say it. I hope that's okay. I wish there was something I could do or say to help you feel better. You are such an amazingly strong, beautiful woman and I love you. You will be good again, I promise. I'm not saying it will be today, or tomorrow. But it will happen. Try to keep the faith, and remember that your mom is finally free, and in peace. She wants you to have that peace too, sweetheart.
Do you have a tdoc/pdoc appointment soon?
Post to me again when you get a chance, so I'll know how you are doing. I'm sooo sorry about the kidney stuff too, that totally bites.
Love and Hugs,
Keli
I'm sorry you are having such a hard time.
God could not be everywhere, so