What the Freak is Wrong with me?

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Registered: 08-25-2010
What the Freak is Wrong with me?
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Mon, 11-29-2010 - 7:27am

I hate this.

this feeling.

I feel like I've come so far, and yet - today I feel in the pit.

Today I woke up just wanting contact - don't worry I haven't done it.

I don't know why?

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Registered: 11-22-2009
Mon, 11-29-2010 - 7:53am

Lolly,

Is there some painful connection to Mondays or the day after a long holiday weekend? Sometimes that, in and of itself, can trigger old habits and/or depression. I know that the last thing I want to do today is go into work. I have so enjoyed my time away from XJAM and the struggles we are having financially at work.

A run is a great idea and remember, you are just having a moment and one that will pass.

((Hugs)))

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 10-19-2010
Mon, 11-29-2010 - 9:09am
What's wrong with you? Well, your involvement in and ending of a toxic relationship (not to mention all the other stuff going on in your life right now) has brought a 9.0 earthquake upon your mind, body, and spirit....one large enough to make CA break from the coast. I liken what you are feeling today to an aftershock of such a large earthquake...random events that no one knows when they will come or how long they will last. They can be scary beauase after just going through such a tramatic event one may fear when the rumbling starts that this time it's not going stop. But don fear my friend, feel it and ride it out. The big one is over and behind you. Even though there may be some broken glass...it did not bring your house down. The structure of your mind, body and spirit is sound...of that I am sure.
I hope you enjoyed your run and took in all that beautiful crisp morning air deep into your lungs. After being stuck in this place for three days I can't wait to get outside. :)
Happy Monday...go listen to some good music ;)

Sending love and many "dont fear the aftershock" vibes your way this morning.
Peace & light
Foggy
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Registered: 05-15-2010
Mon, 11-29-2010 - 12:08pm

Hi Lolly,

Who knows why our thoughts wander and why we want to talk to exAPS again.

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Registered: 08-25-2010
Mon, 11-29-2010 - 3:47pm
I don't think it's any connection - today is just a gloomy rainy day (which I love) but for whatever reason this morning, I just missed him. I'm okay now - and doing better - going running always helps me clear my brain. :) I suppose it was just one of those fleeting things - easy to wallow in if we're not careful - I've kept myself busy to offset things - went to the grocery store, ran some errands, and thinking of making some homemade soup!
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Registered: 08-25-2010
Mon, 11-29-2010 - 3:54pm
Thanks Foggy -
I agree - today felt like an aftershock - one that I am okay with. I hope you are healing beautifully and feeling good!! I did enjoy my run - and crisp is an understatement - it was downright nippy! I cranked some tunes as I ran around running errands and doing the shopping and got drizzled on..... it was a perfect cool fall day. A rarity for me! And then.... (just now) I got a call for a job interview that I REALLY want - so keep your fingers and toes crossed!!!! Maybe the answer is all in just going back to work!
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Registered: 08-25-2010
Mon, 11-29-2010 - 3:55pm
Thanks MC - knowing that you guys are all here to support me helps so much!!!
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