Monday Roll Call 9.26.05

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Monday Roll Call 9.26.05
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Mon, 09-26-2005 - 8:01am

Who is here? How are you doing?????

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Mon, 09-26-2005 - 9:40am

Catherine here, still feeling great.

Having some weird dreams, but they always seem to related to something I've seen on television (although expanded upon by my own freaky subconscience I guess. LOL!)

At least I AM sleeping, which makes a world of difference.

I'm also planning to quit smoking later this week (gotta get the patch to really be successful I think...) and start getting daily walks in by taking my two monster dogs out for a 'stroll' (they actually walk me, whether I want to speed along or not! My 'baby' weighs 105 pounds now and he's still growing!)

Anyway, just wanted to check in. I am sending all my positive thoughts out to everyone who is struggling right now.

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Mon, 09-26-2005 - 9:57am

I'm here...sadly glad to be back to work....was a pretty boring weekend.

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Mon, 09-26-2005 - 10:02am

Christina here and I'm still a bit on the weird side. Possible trigger if you keep reading.


Friday I ended up with the start of a migrane and I know from expierence that I need to stick some extra strength tylenol down my gullet and take a nap if I'm to get rid of it before it becomes full blown. Well I guess during my nap I ended up having a horrendous nightmare and I can't remember what it was about. Jeff tried waking me up by touching my legs and gently shaking me awake like he usually does but I guess it wasn't working because I started kicking him. He thought I just didn't want to be bothered but I still needed to wake up so he shook my legs a bit harder. I ended up kicking him really hard in the back and he punched my leg.....but I still wasn't waking up. All of this is by his account because I had no idea what was going on since I was still sleeping and in the throws of this nightmare. Then he said that I balled my hands into fists like I was about to strike and my face started contorting into different horrified looks and that's when he knew something was wrong. I started crying uncontrolably and then he said that's when I woke up. Now when I woke up I was still crying with tears streaming down my face and I thought I did something wrong; something extremely bad but I couldn't figure it out. Jeff held me to calm me down and so I could finish crying. My MIL walks in sees the shape I'm in and really doesn't say anything about it but continues the fight she was having with Jeff outside and it's like she didn't even care that I was in bad shape. I got myself cleaned up and we went out to dinner. Now I haven't been violent while sleeping in over 2 years and I'm wondering what set me off!!!???


Over the weekend I've been really happy but I'll still get that cloud over my face if something is said to me or to anyone else. It really doesn't trigger anything in particular but I can feel my face darken, stay for a moment and then it's gone. It's really weird. It's like I get this depressed feeling for just a moment and then go on like nothing happened. This has been happening for the last 2 weeks. Normally when I'm depressed I will be like that for at least a week; if not more. This time around it was completely different where I'd be depressed for a few hours out of the day and happy for the rest or I'll be completely depressed all day except for a few hours of happiness. This is what I'm talking about when I say that I'm weird or have been feeling weird. Has anyone gone through this?


Anyway this got long enough so I'll stop here. I hope everyone else is feeling better!!!!











Christina; wife to Jeff; mom to Jeremiah, Brieanna, & Gavin

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Mon, 09-26-2005 - 10:29am

I've never taken lamictal so I'm not sure if it will have that particular side effect. Now this might be TMI but you asked about those kinds of problems so I'll give ya a rundown on what I think. This is JMHO and something I've seen happen myself with myself.


It could be that the big O isn't happening for a few reasons: 1) af will be around soon and your body is preparing for it so you might not expierence it. 2) your emotions are all wacky and will cause your sex drive to lessen which in turn will prevent you from having it. 3) you want to have one so badly that your mind is playing tricks on you so you won't have one.


These are just some things that has happened to me and it's mostly #3 that gets me so the only way for me to get the big O is by incorporating toys to stimulate certain areas. Now I've had this talk with Jeff and he understands what's going on but I'll make a comment in a sexy way to let him know that things aren't going the way that either of us want and he goes along with it. My only suggestion to you is if you do use any sort of toy you don't use it too much otherwise your sensitivity will lessen as well and make it harder for you to O. I've also gone through this. Sometimes even if I want to have an O I will hold off and just make sure that Jeff is satisfied and I'll get mine next time.


Ok now all of that was definately TMI but you really can't ask and not expect to get an answer. I tried to put it as gently as possible because sometimes I can talk about sex and be very frank and candid....LOL!!!!


On to another subject shall we? We ended up getting some rain on and off all week so that is good for the grass and for the huge tomato plant that we have. There are about 40 green tomatoes that need to ripen but I think that tonight I'll pick some of the green ones and make Fried Green Tomatoes for dinner. I know how to make them because I have a recipe for them but I've never made them before. Hopefully they won't come out too bad. For some reason if I make something for the 1st time it comes out ok, the 2nd time it comes out great and the 3rd or more times I make it; it will either be a disaster or I make it even better. It's weird about my cooking abilities. Ok there I go off on another tangent...LOL!!!!











Christina; wife to Jeff; mom to Jeremiah, Brieanna, & Gavin

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Mon, 09-26-2005 - 10:39am

just checking in. nothing has changed for the better. sorry, but thats all i've got right now.


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Mon, 09-26-2005 - 10:57am
I am healing slowly.I am trying to do more ,but I get tired so easily.Parts of my arm still hurt badly at times.I go to the surgeon today and I expect him to release me back to my primasry care doc.
I am cycling.For some reaason I want to remember what happened in the hospital.I need to know the truth. My "T" says I should not try to remember,but I am remembering bits and piece.It scares me to be out of control.
I was tolsd that the STAFF infection was caused by a weakened immune system.I do not know if that was caused by depression,stress, and SI.
I would like to get a job to make money for Chridtmass.However,Right now I am too fatigued to function in a job.
I canot"sell "myself right now.The pronblem is getting a part-time job with very little stress. I have a spech impediment and I do not have transportation -all things that hinder me in getting a job. Now I have the big inmncision on my arm.
I have to be careful this winter because my immune system is so weaknened. I have to be carful to avoid colds, flu and etc. because they may immune system is weakend.I cannot work with children and I do not think I should work in retail ,I wish I could find something that I can do at home. <<<<>>>Fran
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Mon, 09-26-2005 - 11:20am

Thanks for your response...I'd rather everyone be honest then tiptoe around it.


The one thing I should have mentioned is...I had a LEEP done back in August.

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Mon, 09-26-2005 - 11:55am

You just said it yourself that it might have something to do with the surgeries you've had and has nothing to do with him. Just gently reaffim this and tell him that because of all the surgeries you have lost sensitivity. It really isn't him and he needs to understand that which is hard for some men to realize.



Christina; wife to Jeff; mom to Jeremiah, Brieanna, & Gavin

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Mon, 09-26-2005 - 12:28pm

I'm here...but I am getting more and more dwown as the day goes on...I didn't sleep well last night, only about 4-5 hours instead of my usual 7-8, so I am hoping that's it. Plus, I'm really broke this week, surely that's part of it. Payday is Friday. I'm pretty stressed out about it.

Just really tired...period.

Had a really good weekend, considering. Didn't do much of anything, but it was good all in all.

Now, BLAH.

I have the day off on Friday, then am going to my parents that night. Its not a bad thing, haven't been there in what seems like AGES, so I'm not dreading it. I just want this day to be over, so I can go home and lay down. I just don't feel good today.

Freaking BP. I don't think this is a huge mood swing, just a bad day. Can't I hope?

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Mon, 09-26-2005 - 1:50pm

Well, I can finally log in again--haven't been able to since Sat nite! (BTW-they are having recurrent problems with this--don't know why, but keep trying it's usually temporary.)


I ate like a total pig Saturday nite--hadn't eaten all day and a conversation with a friend veered on the subject of pizza.

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