i know you aren't going to like this, but you have to call your pdoc...i didn't want to either, because i was tired of the whole dang mess of it all...but i finally did it...i told her that...i was tired of taking meds that either made me fat and didn't work, made me feel sick and didn't work...or just plain DIDN'T WORK. So, finally after about 4 phone conversations and 3 office visits we got the meds right. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE call. Don't be so stubborn like I was! I could have prevented about a month's worth of feeling like hell if I'd called and said I REFUSE TO FEEL THIS WAY ON THESE CRAPPY MEDS! Okay? Can you do that? I know you are scared to talk to him because you stopped the Depa, but just take some deep breaths and an Ativan (if you have them) and just DO IT. Please, honey...I know NOW, that I should have either gone I/P a month ago, or forced my pdoc into changing my meds THEN instead of waiting it out...don't do it again...
You don't normally cry...something is definitely up...maybe the Depa, maybe something else, but there IS something else...you know that...call...please. I am begging. Learn from my mistake. I went through hell needlessly. But I DID learn from it. I always seem to learn more and more about my illness the hardest way possibly possible. I hope others can learn from my mistakes.
Now, onto triggers...have you had any? Be honest with me. The xh thing maybe??? That's a HUGE one for you. That could have sent you spinning too. That coupled with the no Depakote could have spiralled you downward. You're only on a very very small dose of Wellbutrin. I know you're hypersensitive to it, but still. When those triggers happen to put you going down, that might not be enough. I'm no pdoc, you know that. But I know enough to know that you're in trouble right now and you need to talk to your pdoc quick.
Thirdly, if you say one more time that you are stupid I'm going to get on a plane and come kick your A$$. Course it will have to wait til I get rich. But I'm doing it in my head. I'm good at that! Doing things in my head!!!! LOL. I have a whole other life up there. Seriously, you're not stupid, baby. You're sick and you know it. And you are feeling the effects of your illness. That's all it is. Do NOT call yourself stupid. Okay?
I'm here all day. Post back. Love you tons and more.
okay, i see your points...just wait and see him monday...
but you CAN not probably make it thru this...
my pdoc wouldn't try lamictal without another mood stablizer too, like the topamax and lithium, but i quit the lithium on my own before i was supposed to...about 3 weeks early. but i couldn't do it either. the risperdal has made ALL the difference for me...its been wonderful...i knew all along a/p's were wonderful, but i freaking HATED seroquel, couldn't take abilify or geodon and forgot all about risperdal...its been my life saver. truly, it has.
tell him you'd like to try lamictal along with your topamax, and add abilify. see what he says. refuse lithium if you don't want it. if he says no about lamictal, go with trileptal.
you can make it through this. you have SOOOO made it through worse.
yes, you have triggers, but i think this may me mostly meds this time.
bethie, you do NOT have to live with those side affects and you did NOTHING wrong. okay? nothing wrong.
okay, this is JUST my opinion, but you are TOOOOO medicated...could be part of the problem...when i was on THAT MANY meds, i got totally messed up and had to go off EVERYTHING, go i/p and start completely over...ugh.
i think u r on the right track with coming off the depa...maybe the seroquel too...but talk very openly, and firmly to your pdoc about it, okay? i was a walking, crying, zombie who was basically non functioning on that many meds.
hi keli,
i had a terrible day.
i know you aren't going to like this, but you have to call your pdoc...i didn't want to either, because i was tired of the whole dang mess of it all...but i finally did it...i told her that...i was tired of taking meds that either made me fat and didn't work, made me feel sick and didn't work...or just plain DIDN'T WORK. So, finally after about 4 phone conversations and 3 office visits we got the meds right. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE call. Don't be so stubborn like I was! I could have prevented about a month's worth of feeling like hell if I'd called and said I REFUSE TO FEEL THIS WAY ON THESE CRAPPY MEDS! Okay? Can you do that? I know you are scared to talk to him because you stopped the Depa, but just take some deep breaths and an Ativan (if you have them) and just DO IT. Please, honey...I know NOW, that I should have either gone I/P a month ago, or forced my pdoc into changing my meds THEN instead of waiting it out...don't do it again...
You don't normally cry...something is definitely up...maybe the Depa, maybe something else, but there IS something else...you know that...call...please. I am begging. Learn from my mistake. I went through hell needlessly. But I DID learn from it. I always seem to learn more and more about my illness the hardest way possibly possible. I hope others can learn from my mistakes.
Now, onto triggers...have you had any? Be honest with me. The xh thing maybe??? That's a HUGE one for you. That could have sent you spinning too. That coupled with the no Depakote could have spiralled you downward. You're only on a very very small dose of Wellbutrin. I know you're hypersensitive to it, but still. When those triggers happen to put you going down, that might not be enough. I'm no pdoc, you know that. But I know enough to know that you're in trouble right now and you need to talk to your pdoc quick.
Thirdly, if you say one more time that you are stupid I'm going to get on a plane and come kick your A$$. Course it will have to wait til I get rich. But I'm doing it in my head. I'm good at that! Doing things in my head!!!! LOL. I have a whole other life up there. Seriously, you're not stupid, baby. You're sick and you know it. And you are feeling the effects of your illness. That's all it is. Do NOT call yourself stupid. Okay?
I'm here all day. Post back. Love you tons and more.
he mentioned trileptal and lithium.
okay, i see your points...just wait and see him monday...
but you CAN not probably make it thru this...
my pdoc wouldn't try lamictal without another mood stablizer too, like the topamax and lithium, but i quit the lithium on my own before i was supposed to...about 3 weeks early. but i couldn't do it either. the risperdal has made ALL the difference for me...its been wonderful...i knew all along a/p's were wonderful, but i freaking HATED seroquel, couldn't take abilify or geodon and forgot all about risperdal...its been my life saver. truly, it has.
tell him you'd like to try lamictal along with your topamax, and add abilify. see what he says. refuse lithium if you don't want it. if he says no about lamictal, go with trileptal.
you can make it through this. you have SOOOO made it through worse.
yes, you have triggers, but i think this may me mostly meds this time.
bethie, you do NOT have to live with those side affects and you did NOTHING wrong. okay? nothing wrong.
i love you.
i'm already taking lamictal...
he calls me a walking pharmacy, ha ha...
lamictal, abilify, topomax, depakote, seroquel, ativan.
okay, this is JUST my opinion, but you are TOOOOO medicated...could be part of the problem...when i was on THAT MANY meds, i got totally messed up and had to go off EVERYTHING, go i/p and start completely over...ugh.
i think u r on the right track with coming off the depa...maybe the seroquel too...but talk very openly, and firmly to your pdoc about it, okay? i was a walking, crying, zombie who was basically non functioning on that many meds.
btw: my pdoc won't go above two mood stabs...
i wish i could get an earlier appt with him but he's booked up.