Struggling

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Registered: 08-30-2010
Struggling
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Wed, 12-01-2010 - 9:28pm
I am sorry I haven't posted on here or provided much support lately. Truth is I'm exhausted - physically and mentally. The holidays have kicked my butt. I never used to be a bah humbug kind of person but this year I find it too painful to be spreading Christmas cheer. I miss my dad the most; he was pretty much the root of all our wonderful traditions. I also miss exAP when I see a lovey dovey couple and the fact that when I would feel sad I could lean on exAP. 17 more days and then my family is on a jet plane for the Christmas holidays. Sorry to be a downer. Hugs to all.
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Registered: 05-15-2010
Wed, 12-01-2010 - 9:53pm

((( HUGS ))) to you Cait.

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Registered: 07-17-2004
Wed, 12-01-2010 - 11:31pm

Cait, big hugs to you.

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Registered: 04-01-2010
Thu, 12-02-2010 - 6:56am

(((Cait)))

I'm so glad you posted. I was getting concerned about you. I know you are in so much pain. This has got to be such an emotionally difficult time of year for you. Again, I am so sorry for the loss of your father, who obviously was such a strong and inspirational figure for you. Count yourself very fortunate to have had such a wonderful, guiding man in your life. He would like that. He did a good job and is proud of who you are.

I'd like to gently point out

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 11-22-2009
Thu, 12-02-2010 - 7:18am

((Cait))

The holidays are always stressful, even if we haven't experienced loss during the year. You've had a double whammy and it only stands to reason that you would be struggling/depressed this holiday season. Heck, I am always depressed during the holidays...they were never happy times for me anyway. :smileysad:

My 1st and even 2nd Xmas out of my A was rough, but after that, things were back to the normal blahs.:smileywink: All you can do is try to get through the rest of this year the best you can. I think not having your Dad around this year weighs more heavy on your heart than missing XAP.JMHO.

((Hugs))

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 08-30-2010
Thu, 12-02-2010 - 7:28pm
Thank you so much for all of your words. Much love to you all.
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Registered: 11-16-2010
Thu, 12-02-2010 - 10:01pm

Cait ((((Hugs)))

It's amazing the highs and lows that we are experiencing on this journey of NC. Just the other day i published a similar post that i too was struggling, i was missing him and as well as fighting with my inner demons. Today i feel quite good, great actually,

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Registered: 10-16-2010
Thu, 12-02-2010 - 10:32pm

(((Hugs))) to you, Cait!!

As everyone has already said, the holidays are stressful anyhow.