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Struggling
| Wed, 12-01-2010 - 9:28pm |
I am sorry I haven't posted on here or provided much support lately. Truth is I'm exhausted - physically and mentally. The holidays have kicked my butt. I never used to be a bah humbug kind of person but this year I find it too painful to be spreading Christmas cheer. I miss my dad the most; he was pretty much the root of all our wonderful traditions. I also miss exAP when I see a lovey dovey couple and the fact that when I would feel sad I could lean on exAP. 17 more days and then my family is on a jet plane for the Christmas holidays. Sorry to be a downer. Hugs to all.

((( HUGS ))) to you Cait.
Cait, big hugs to you.
(((Cait)))
I'm so glad you posted. I was getting concerned about you. I know you are in so much pain. This has got to be such an emotionally difficult time of year for you. Again, I am so sorry for the loss of your father, who obviously was such a strong and inspirational figure for you. Count yourself very fortunate to have had such a wonderful, guiding man in your life. He would like that. He did a good job and is proud of who you are.
I'd like to gently point out
((Cait))
The holidays are always stressful, even if we haven't experienced loss during the year. You've had a double whammy and it only stands to reason that you would be struggling/depressed this holiday season. Heck, I am always depressed during the holidays...they were never happy times for me anyway. :smileysad:
My 1st and even 2nd Xmas out of my A was rough, but after that, things were back to the normal blahs.:smileywink: All you can do is try to get through the rest of this year the best you can. I think not having your Dad around this year weighs more heavy on your heart than missing XAP.JMHO.
((Hugs))
Cait ((((Hugs)))
It's amazing the highs and lows that we are experiencing on this journey of NC. Just the other day i published a similar post that i too was struggling, i was missing him and as well as fighting with my inner demons. Today i feel quite good, great actually,
(((Hugs))) to you, Cait!!
As everyone has already said, the holidays are stressful anyhow.