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| Thu, 09-29-2005 - 10:41am |
As I said in another post I usually dont post on this board, I lurk but this morning I got on this board cause I needed to read some posts of people who felt like me. Thats what I like about this board, you understand how I feel.
Right now I feel like crap. I've been on this down side for so long that I dont remember what if feels like to be up. I'm sleeping 12-15 hours a night. I can barely make it to six o'clock most nights. I just want to sleep. I want to be numb, I dont want to exsist. And no one seems to understand just how bad I feel. My mom told me the other day that I needed to get over it and move on(if I could figure out what is doing this I would get over it) and my husband has been kind of upset with me the past couple of nights. I had to give up a volenteer job I had a church yesterday just because I dont think I can be that reliable for them and that made him angry. My daughter has told both of her grandma's that mommy sleeps all the time and that I never do anything with them. I do. I try but I guess that's not enough. I'm just so tired of feeling like this. My doctor told me I was ADD too and I thought she was crazy cause not once in my life have I felt I was ADD so I took the stupid pill they gave me for two weeks and thought that was enough. I think my Effexor isnt working anymore. I just dont know.
So if you made it this far, thank you. I just wanted someone to listen to me. I hope you all have a good Thursday.
Christal

Christal,
I am glad to see you posting. It really does help sometimes to just get it out.
I have felt just like you. Finally, I just got sick of feeling like crap (bear in mind I put up with it for like 2 years straight) and went to a Pdoc. I was scared of medication (still am) but I got lucky. The first medication (Abilify) helped some, but just wasn't quite right for me. My second try (Lamictal) seems to be working very well.
I have energy now, I feel better about myself, I've started going on walks (trying to lose some of the weight I gained over the last year... I'm mortified to say it's about 30 pounds and I wasn't *petite* to begin with - blech!) In short, everything is just 'better' now. Oh, and I quit smoking last night!
Just wanted to give you a little hope until you feel better.
Catherine
I agree with Catherine...I'm on Lamictal and its helped quite a bit.
God could not be everywhere, so
I take 150mg of Effexor
160mg Geodon
200mg Lamactial
and I was taking 300mg of Lithium but I stopped that last night and I was also taking 40mg of Focalin(for ADD) I was going to a doctor about three months ago and I stopped seeing her cause she wanted to take me off of the effexor cause she read somewhere that people with bi-polar should not be taking antidepressants for long periods of time cause it makes them cycle more. Well I went to this new doctor and she is the one who diagnosed me with ADD. I was shocked and my husband was more shoked cause that was the last thing we would have thought of. But I was so desperate for answers that I just did what she said without questioning it. Now Im thinking that I need to go back to that first doctor. Maybe she knew what she was talking about.
Interesting..I've never heard of Focalin before...wonder if its new.
God could not be everywhere, so