manic friday!

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Registered: 11-18-2003
manic friday!
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Fri, 09-30-2005 - 10:49am

there will come a day that my meds get straight and this won't continue to happen, but until then, i'm enjoying this part of the ride! i'm not depressed, i'm not raging, i'm flying!


i love this feeling! i'm where i was a few weeks back when i started on the depakote, which now i'm thinking dd was right.....i was manic. there are certain "tell-tale" signs that point straight to mania and i've got 'em!


just got off the phone with pdoc. he has told me to reduce - NOT eliminate the trileptal from 1200 to 900 and if i'm still dragging the next day to take 600 after a couple of weeks. UGH! also told me to start with the seroquel again only 200 this time as opposed to the 300 i was taking. removed the trazodone!!! YAY! but left me on the wellbutrin.


anyway.......all i can say is i hope this phase lasts for a while. how's everyone else today?


hugs,
traci

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Fri, 09-30-2005 - 11:11am

Traci


I don't know if I should be happy or worried...just kidding.

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Fri, 09-30-2005 - 12:27pm

((((donna)))) NO i'm not sorry i asked! that's why we are here for each other. so we can vent, get support, and know (or be reminded) that we're not NUTS!


as for dd, probably a good thing she's at her dad's at the moment. i know if it was my dd (who, btw, is only a month older than yours), she would be having tremendous difficulty sitting down at school today! especially if something like that had happened the other day when i was raging if the wind blew in the wrong direction.


the pg thing - well sweetie, all i can say is that you know your body. it is possible to be pg and still have a/f. if it's worrying you, get a test. it's NOT stupid! repeat after me!!!!! it's NOT stupid!!!!!


i hope the walk helps you some. if your weather is anything like the weather here in northern va today, it should! so, i'll keep my fingers crossed for ya:)


and the trust issue w/ dd........don't beat yourself up over it. once she figures out that you are the mom (and it may take constant reminding for a while), she will settle back down. she's testing you - plain and simple. yeah, it sucks and yeah you feel crushed because you don't feel like you can trust your own flesh and blood. but it will get better! once she learns she can't "get over on mom" she'll come around. it may not be easy and painless for her or you, but as they say anything worth having is worth fighting for......or something like that.


i'll send you an e-mail w/ my phone #. i've still got yours. so if you need to talk, you will know how to find me:)


i know i should probably be worried about my mood but fact is i'm just not. i'm tired of the seemingly endless depression and rage. these manic moods i savor! and as long as i keep myself away from certain temptations i should be ok. And not having a significant other in my life pretty much ensures that. sigh. sorry if that's tmi.


hang in there sweetie! i'm here for ya!


love & hugs,
traci

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Fri, 09-30-2005 - 1:07pm

Traci,


I hope this is just a nice & lovely mania (and stays that way).

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Fri, 09-30-2005 - 1:29pm

"normal?" you mean there is such a thing???? ;) i hope you are right. i'm thinking my rage the other day may have been linked to this somehow, but if so, it's behind me now:)


let me know if you need to talk. i'm here for you and worry about you. you've got a lot on your plate right now, and believe me, i know how that feels!


love & hugs,
traci