i apologize...my

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Registered: 03-25-2003
i apologize...my
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Mon, 10-03-2005 - 5:08pm
previous post is not at all supportive.
i don't understand how we all go on tho.
what does it FEEL like to feel like everyone else.
don't you notice that in therapy WE are always ok...it's the rest of the world who is whacked?
how can that be.
i'm past my years of feeling grandiose.
i miss them terribly.
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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: suziq_3
Tue, 10-04-2005 - 7:49am

i soooo miss them too...

sometimes i will have a slight glimpse back into that world again...my own little keli world where i was queen of all...that complete manic world that i loved so much...

:(

but then i remember how much i did to hurt everyone around me...and i don't ever wanna go back to that place again...so i take my meds, and i fight the depressions that come along with the meds, and i try to accept the weight gain, and i survive.

and you will too, because i won't have it any other way.

we can talk about our "old manic days" all day long, but we will never go back...right?

love and hugs...

k.

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Registered: 04-06-2005
In reply to: suziq_3
Tue, 10-04-2005 - 9:20am

I agree...and as much fun you think it was, you really need to look forward, or take it one day at a time.

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