The Incurrable Lurker strikes again.

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Registered: 12-14-2004
The Incurrable Lurker strikes again.
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Tue, 10-04-2005 - 3:58pm

Hey all. Thought I should do my monthly check in (or so it seems). Sorry I don't hang out as much as I probably should, but I've been extremely busy this month.

Things are going OK right now on this end. I've had a little bit of a rough time with my job starting up properly. I'm no longer in training and I'm taking calls like crazy now. The calls are a bit dishearting at time for someone in my position with the depression and I've already had a close coworker all but quit because she found out she's bipolar in the worst way possible. (She's in hospital right now.) It's hard to take calls when you don't know when you're going to be dealt the caller from Hell who wants nothing more than complain and insult you. (Correction: they're not insulting you, they're mad at Cathrine Zeta-Jones.) I've learned though is that I have to take it all with a grain of salt and that it's all part of God's plan to streangthen my skin a little.

I saw my pdoc last week. I told him about the troubles I've been having at work and the fact that I've been having severe panic and anxity attacks because of some of the calls I get here at work and he gave me Atavin. That's great because Atavin is the only anxity pill I can take and still be alert enough to carry on. (Seriquel knocks me right off my feet). I have to call him back though because now my mom's noticing how badly I shake all day long. I don't know what it is.

Anyway, through the slight bout of depression there is some good news. I finally narrowed down the time frame of when I'm going to move out of my parents house. July of next year I'm getting on a plane with my cousin and I'm going to go to England to live with her for awhile. Just for a few months to a year. I just need some time to clear my mind and start freash. :)

Anyway, got to go. Lunch is over.

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Wed, 10-05-2005 - 11:35am

Hey there...Its good to here from you! I'm glad you decided to check in, even if it is once a month! Its cool. England sounds wonderful. That gives you a goal. Something to look forward to. So you only have to work at that job for several months longer and then its off to a new life, a brand new start. How refreshing. I'm proud of you for making that decision and being brave enough to do it. I hope you are proud of yourself too!

Yes, if you are shaking all day, definitely talk to your pdoc. Something could be going on with the Ativan, or it could be with another of your meds. Its hard to tell. They could be reacting to one another. You could be having more anxiety WITH the Ativan, that IS possible with some people.

Hang in there, girlfriend. You've got a great future looming ahead!

Hugs,

Keli