Tracey
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| Wed, 10-05-2005 - 8:42am |
Hey you...how are you doing? I'm so so...mood is going dooooowwwwwnnnnn....but i don't EVEN wanna talk about it anymore!!!!! GOD! I'm pissed too...about nothing and everything at once...you know the feeling.
Nothing triggered it, and nothing changed...so I don't know why...just because I'm freaking BP and rapid cycle...but I'll be okay...I don't think its anything major...I don't feel good, I have a sinus thing going on and some yucky side affects from Risperdal...so maybe thats it...plus I did get a bit too manicky yesterday, and then just crashed...so I knew it would happen...just didn't know it would happen that freaking fast...
But don't worry, I'm okay...its just a minor swing...I'm broke as you know what too...that stupid utility bill, plus ALL my other bills, and I spent too much on NOTHING, literally...???? Didn't buy anything, but I am broke just the same...stupid trips to the grocery to buy dinners that were way too expensive...ordering in pizza, stuff like that...trips to walmart for this and that, that I didn't need...you know the drill on that too...
Anyway, I just wanted to touch base with you...I miss you SO much! How is work going...and home? And everything????? Things are going well for me, all in all, considering my stupid BP crap. But this is nothing...compared to the last 3 months of hell. Truly nothing...work is good, I've been VERY productive, almost all the way caught up...Eric and Mike are good...Mike is a brat, so that means he's good. :)
Hope all is well with you and Mike and Savannah...talk to you soon.
Love you.
k.

UPDATE:
k, today I feel better! my mood started going back up the other way yesterday around 4:30, WEIRD! around the same time the day before it went downward. i dunno, i don't care, just glad 2 be feeling better again. i stayed up late last night, til around 1:00, up at 6:00 this morning...so i was a bit sleepy, but i got coffee and am just fine.
i hope you're just busy and okay, and not not okay...
i'm going to buy a long distance card so i can call you...i just hate to bother you when you're home with mike...but at this point, you can tell me, i'm busy with mike, bye...okay? lol
i do miss you...you're my bestest friend in the world and we never talk...but you are NEVER out of my thoughts.
take care and we'll talk soon.
love you