Sister, stress, guilt

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Sister, stress, guilt
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Wed, 10-05-2005 - 1:45pm

I am soooooo stressed. I hate talking to my sister. I love her but I hate talking to her. Her life is so messed up and becuase I care about her I get stressed and a nervous reck. Today she called me talking about how she is going to move her things from her bf's house. She is afraid he will break things up and make this real hard for her, which I know he will. I hate him with all my heart. I will not go

 
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Wed, 10-05-2005 - 2:40pm

If I had the money, I would rent a car, take a few days off and come pick you up and you can stay with me for a while...I'm serious. But I'm so broke right now. UGH!

You aren't lying if you told the hospital you wanted to die...a big part of you does. You don't have to go through your pdoc, who for some STUPID reason won't admit you...mine never does anyway, she tells me to go to the ER, and be admitted through them...its just her policy and my insurance's too. Anyway, I wish I could come pick you up...I need a road trip!

I would come in a second if I could...

You go to the ER and admit yourself, don't call your pdoc, he'll just change your meds or something and obviously that isn't what you need. It will be a welcome and much needed relief for a while. Call me if you need me.

I'll check back in a few if you want to post right back.

Love you

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Wed, 10-05-2005 - 3:00pm

If I keep getting overwhlemed I am going to go to the ER. Billy won't like it but oh freaking well. I won't tell him if I do go. I just took 1 xanax and I am waiting for it to kick in. I am trying to just rest today. I have to make dinner in a few hours but that won't be too bad. I have to eat right? Billy is away again today working on that darn house. I can't wait until that is finished. he will just go right to another job and work long hours again. i am trying to get myself together today to draw. I started drawing a fairy, but it takes so long to get all the details drawn. I love Amy brown faries. Check out her web site sometime if you want, it is www.amybrownart.com

 
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Registered: 11-18-2003
Wed, 10-05-2005 - 10:30pm

((((((((((((tina))))))))))))) soft gentle loving hugs coming your way hon. i so feel your pain sweetie and know there's not a flippin thing i can do to make it go away. just know that i'm here and i totally understand what you are going through.


i know when i lost my dad, i went back to his apartment within 2 days and just did what i had to do. i was numb so i managed. don't remember much of it, but it was just something i felt i had to do quickly. i can remember one of the nurses coming in and i just fell apart, but once i was done, i left that building and never have gone back since.


now, almost 2 years later,