Beth...no trigs

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Beth...no trigs
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Thu, 10-06-2005 - 1:05pm

Beth,

I'm okay...freaked out on the other board early this morning, was a bit manic, now i'm about even, which means i'll probably go down this afternoon...but its all okay now...got lectured...shoulda known better...ugh. i hate the lectures...i know they are right, but still.

how are you doing? i hope you are okay...i deleted my stuff over there...it was waaay too triggery anyway and i didn't want you to get triggered too...

post me here if you come here, okay?

love you.

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-19-2004
In reply to: keli003
Thu, 10-06-2005 - 1:28pm

hi,


hope you're feeling better now.

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: keli003
Thu, 10-06-2005 - 1:38pm

no, i KNEW you would KNOW what i'd done...lol! but i didn't want anyone else to!!! :)

anyway, your job sucks, i hate you have to go it every day...

your tdoc is starting to piss ME off too! does she not SEE what is right in front of her freaking FACE??? i dunno...i don't get it either...

i am so cycling...guess its time to up my topamax to 300 mgs...pdoc said go as high as 400, but i haven't yet...have only been at 200 mgs so far...so i'll start 250 tonight for a few days, and get to 300 mgs...the cycling is wild! i'm cycling 3x in 24 hours so far...and it has been quicker than that before...talk about exhausting...but right now, still manicky...god.

i get off work in 25 minutes, but oh joy, i get to take my son to get a hair cut and go to the grocery store, with money i don't have to spend...ugh.

i wish we lived closer...

i was home last night all alone too...til about 10:00...i just watched stupid tv shows...

i don't wanna crash today...i hope i don't...i need to take an ativan myself, but it will bring me down too far...can't do that...i'll take one when i get home after errands...

anyway, this is too boring and long, so i'm gonna stop it...

love you...hang in there...