Having a difficult weekend

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Registered: 12-14-2004
Having a difficult weekend
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Sun, 10-09-2005 - 6:46pm

Yeah, two posts in one week. Slight miricle for me I guess. I just have to share some of the experiences that have come down this weekend. They're not good.

It all started Friday when I had a huge panic attack at work when I couldn't help a customer understand her bill. (She just wouldn't quit yelling at me.) Then on Saturday, at the mear mention of my ex, it sent me into a dark depressive state that I just couldn't snap out of all night. I was having SI thoughts to the extent it was scaring me and concerned my friends when I confronted them. So I went to the hospital today to kind of see some kind of help they could offer me and they offered some advice but it just feels like I'm being told the same thing over and over again. Yes, I realize life has it's ups and downs and I'm slowly learning to see it like that, but what I'm feeling is scary and if I could, quote on quote, "lighten up" like that, I would. (My mom said that. ;( ) I'm shaking uncontrolibly because the doctor didn't want to change my medications with out the permission of my pdoc.

I've been tired all weekend, I've slept all weekend. I hate what this has done to me and I don't know how to fix it. I just hate this all.

Happy Thanksgiving to all the Canucks on the board. Hope you all don't have to work like I do tomorrow. :p

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Sun, 10-09-2005 - 7:06pm

Big hugs, Sweetie--spent years in CS and the last 9 months of working in phone center Hell--so I can definitely relate.

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Sun, 10-09-2005 - 10:09pm

yep, you do learn how to talk to moron customers. I worked in a call center for a major cell fon company. I know how hard that can be and how paniced it can make you when a customer is not understaning something, when to you it is clear as a bell. I always tried to act like I was explaining it to my 6 or 9 yo even to lawyers. Working with the public is one of the hardest jobs.

I think you are very intune to your si thoughts and need to find an outlet for them - a positive one. However the drs dont need to make light of them - there are ups and downs is like saying get over it. Please having bp means the lows are lower and the highs are higher.

Jen

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Mon, 10-10-2005 - 8:35am

hey sweetie,

do you have an appt. with pdoc soon? if not, maybe you give him/her a call, okay? this is something you definitely need to discuss sooner rather than later.

i hope you ended up having a better night last night and will have a better day today.

its not as easy as "lightening up" . Maybe you could try to explain that in really simple terms to your mom. I know with my mom I have to use analogies a lot...or explain things over and over in the most simple terms I can find regarding BP. They don't get it a lot.

Hugs!

Keli

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Mon, 10-10-2005 - 9:18am

ah yeah..gotta love that..just snap out of it, why can't you just be happy, why do your moods have to be so drastic'...blah blah blah.


I hope today brings you more peace and hope.

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