Renewal, Happy Anniversary to you and your H. It takes time especially for us newbies to bring our hearts and minds to the same point. I know you will get there, could there be a trigger with this anniversary or even the holiday season that has you feeling sad? Let the feelings out then go enjoy your H:)
Hi renewal, I hope this helps but I first tried thinking of xap not existing and I was stuck. Once I acknowledged to myself yes he does exist just not in my world anymore it has helped me direct my focus on myself. Thoughts of him still pop up and it is getting easier to stop the thought and think about where it's really coming from. We will get there renewal, we are all learning from each other:)
Sorry your are struggling. I struggled with wanting to scrub my brain of xap for a while because he was a LOSER as well. I can't even believe I stooped as low as bringing someone like him in my life when I have this amazing H. My DH would think I was crazy if he knew who he was (UGH!).
Thanks Jenn. I think I am more angry at myself than anything.
Thanks Jenn.
Sorry your are struggling. I struggled with wanting to scrub my brain of xap for a while because he was a LOSER as well. I can't even believe I stooped as low as bringing someone like him in my life when I have this amazing H. My DH would think I was crazy if he knew who he was (UGH!).