Tracey

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tracey
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Mon, 10-10-2005 - 1:39pm

I hope you are okay and just busy. I've not heard anything from you in ages...but its okay, as long as you are OKAY.

Just know I miss you and love you and you are constantly in my thoughts every hour of every day!

Keli

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In reply to: keli003
Mon, 10-10-2005 - 2:24pm
bump
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In reply to: keli003
Tue, 10-11-2005 - 12:18pm

bump!

please let me know if you are okay!!! call me, or post me here...

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In reply to: keli003
Wed, 10-12-2005 - 10:54am

pretty please??? !!!!!!! this is an order now...not a request.

love u

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In reply to: keli003
Wed, 10-12-2005 - 11:14pm

Hey - I hope THIS post shows up! I've been trying to check in with you here at least a couple times a week, but they haven't always been showing up - part of the love/hate relationship I have with iVillage - it loves to hate me.

I am doing really really well. Busier then I have been in MANY years, which is awesome. The new job is great, and I am loving it. Things with Mike are better every day, and considering it was good to start with, that's a big woohoo hooray! He is doing some work part time for a friend of my dads - plumbing. He found out her REALLY likes that type of work and is looking into apprenticeship and educational programs in the area. I would love it if he got into one, even though it would keep money tight for a couple years, but the payoff would be SO worth it!!!

We had a few issues last week, but we had a LONG talk and then some time to think followed by an even longer talk and really worked through some issues and talked about what we have been thinking and struggling with.

Savannah still adores Mike, but she is REALLY testing us right now. She has gotten herself into a HUGE pile of doo doo the other day. Mike is really good about keeping me tough on the rules and enforcing them and the punishments.

Anyway, I don't THINK we have any plans this weekend, so I should be able to call. Take care and hang in there!!! I really REALLY REALLY miss you too!!!

Love ya!
Tracey

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In reply to: keli003
Thu, 10-13-2005 - 7:54am

omg, i am almost in tears here! Its soooo good to hear from you! thank god everything is soooo good for you...i'm so thankful for that. i'm hanging in there...still trying to stabilize on SOME meds...i don't care at this point which ones...went back on lithium, but its not doing much...wasn't before either, which was why I went off it...still isn't...so i am just waiting on Lamictal to kick in...i'm only on 25 mgs, so it will be a few weeks before i'm up to 100, and then I'll go up to 200 after that...that's our big hope and plan, so hope for me...the lithium just fizzled out at 900 mgs, and for a week now, it hasn't done much either...so i'm coming back off it again...i called jane and talked to her about it yesterday afternoon, and she agrees that it just isn't cutting it...my cycling is so out of whack again, but i can deal with it as long as i stay out of the depressions...i go into them...and sometimes they are lasting more than a day or two, and that's what i hate...the manias are getting pretty rough too though...i'm not taking my ativan to help control the agitation like i'm supposed to, so i have to do that when they get that bad and it does help. I have to increase my Risperdal back to 2 mgs at night, and that helps as well.

I've been trying to call the H word...and I've seen Chris, he's been hanging out with Eric if you can believe that...then he called me at work and got me totally all mad...I'll have to tell you about it on the phone...I've stopped calling H...I hate him...and all of them...having a bit of trouble lately with Eric...nothing major...just me and my BP brain and craziness going on really...he's had some issues of his own trying to deal with me lately...and of course, I take it all personnally...its been pretty bad...was supposed to start EMDR today, but decided to cancel it...just can't do it right now...just can't.

anyway, don't worry about me, i will be fine...i always am...pms is in the picture this week too, and making me crazier...i will be at my mom's this weekend and would love to talk to you, if you get a chance to call...but its okay if you can't...i do understand...i just miss you like crazy...798-3050 number, but not the same area code as my home number...i think you still have it...its my cell...let me know if you don't and i can call you and you can call me back or something...

i'm having some trouble with Fibromyalgia again...its so cruel! constant pain in all joints and muscles...ugh.

work is going well actually...i love my job...thank god for my job...its the only thing keeping me going right now...i have a ton of work to do...but yesterday didn't do much...lol...so i have double to do today!

i'm so glad mike is loving plumbing...my dad is a plumber! was all his life...if he can find something he loves and is good at, the money thing should be kinda secondary, and you know what i mean...eric is working today too...

my mike is being a real brat these days too and is about to be in some real trouble with his report card...i really dread it for him becuz he is going to be off the football team and that is going to break his heart. but he needs a reality check and this is defintely going to be one!

my birthday is on the 24th...you know how depressed i get on my birthday...i hate it...i always get my hopes up for a good one, and always end up disappointed...don't know why i bother...still looking for a car...well, not even really looking til i have some money...HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

anyway, sorry it got so long, just had a lot to talk to you about...

love you lots,

k.