i'm not good today at all. i had really hoped that massage would help on a number of levels, and for an hour it did. but the back ache is still persistent (been drinking cranberry juice out the a$$ in hopes that it's just a bladder infection), freaking out because i'm terrified it's much worse than that, my nerves are shot. i'm shaking and can't get it under control.
saw tdoc briefly this morning and told her i'm going to family doc today about the acupuncture (hopefully) and to get the back thing checked out. also told her that the email i got on friday regarding the phone number for the legal firm turned out to be "call one more number". so, i've called that number, got referred to yet another number this morning. found their website, filled out an application and am waiting to hear back from them. however, am NOT holding my breath. as my luck runs, they won't be able to help me. i'll either make too much money or not enough. and yes, in this area you can get turned down for aid because you don't make enough money. happened to me about
"i feel like i have nothing left. just empty and exhausted and done. i want things to turn around and it seems the harder i try the worse i make them. i've gotten better in the regard that i no longer want to die, but i'm still cycling and i'm sick of it."
i'm not good today at all. i had really hoped that massage would help on a number of levels, and for an hour it did. but the back ache is still persistent (been drinking cranberry juice out the a$$ in hopes that it's just a bladder infection), freaking out because i'm terrified it's much worse than that, my nerves are shot. i'm shaking and can't get it under control.
saw tdoc briefly this morning and told her i'm going to family doc today about the acupuncture (hopefully) and to get the back thing checked out. also told her that the email i got on friday regarding the phone number for the legal firm turned out to be "call one more number". so, i've called that number, got referred to yet another number this morning. found their website, filled out an application and am waiting to hear back from them. however, am NOT holding my breath. as my luck runs, they won't be able to help me. i'll either make too much money or not enough. and yes, in this area you can get turned down for aid because you don't make enough money. happened to me about
"i feel like i have nothing left. just empty and exhausted and done. i want things to turn around and it seems the harder i try the worse i make them. i've gotten better in the regard that i no longer want to die, but i'm still cycling and i'm sick of it."
I could have written this statement also !!!!
God could not be everywhere, so