Called pdoc and update

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Called pdoc and update
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Thu, 10-13-2005 - 8:13am

Okay, called my pdoc last night...I've just been so down again...and wanted to see if I needed to be doing anything...anyway, here's what the deal is...

Guess what? I am cycling! Yep! That's exactly what she said. !!! I was like, no, really? God, I wanted to be very sarcastic. But I wasn't. I do love her. So, I said, very politely, yes, I know I'm cycling. But, I've had more down days than up days, because I've been charting my moods every day and I see the patterns. I told her I stopped the Lithium, no real change, then started it again a few days ago, no real change...she said get rid of it...it already fizzled out a long time ago, and I'm on two other mood stabs...I'm almost to 50 mgs of Lamictal and she was going to have to me stop it at 50 anyway. So I confessed that...but she said stop it again...its just not working for me anymore...not at 600 mgs...and she said I can't take 900 mgs with the Topamax 300 mgs and the Lamictal 50 mgs...and I get toxic at anything higher than 900 mgs anyway...SO, I'm back OFF Lithium now...She said that PMS is making me feel more depressed this week...and probably even some last week. I have PMDD, which is worse than PMS and lasts longer...about 10-12 days instead of 7...Some months are better, some worse...She said I'll stabilize again when the Lamictal hits the right dose, around 100 - 200 mgs. I haven't had the slightest hint of a rash, so I should be able to get to that dose.

I just wanted to talk to her, tell her what I'd done with the Lithium, and get her advice before I started downhill and wasn't able to come back up.

We both decided we were NOT going to increase my Prozac. I do NOT want to cycle any MORE than I am now...and I would with an increase.

So I go in for an appt in November and I am to call when I finish my starter pack of Lamictal (2 weeks) for an RX for 100 mg tablets.

No more Lithium for good this time, and okayed by pdoc...that makes me feel better. I felt like I was doing all this to myself, ya know?

I was sooooo wiped out all the time on it too...no energy, sleepier, felt "heavier" if you know what I mean...I definitely can tell when I'm on it and when I'm not on it now. Physical side affects wise...not BP wise. It just wasn't doing a darn thing for my BP.

Today, I don't know HOW I am. I am sleepy. I got to work in the dark, around 7:15. Pitch dark still. But I think I'm okay...I feel the depression around the edges trying to seep in...so I have to fight it off somehow...if anyone knows how, lemme know.

Love to all,

Keli

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Thu, 10-13-2005 - 8:48am

((((((Keli))))))


I am sorry that you are having a difficult time. I wish I knew how to drag yourself out of the blues. If I did I would gladly tell everyone. So you are off the Lithium for good. Well maybe it is for the best. I am on Lamictal 450 mgs a day, and so far have had no problems. It has been wonderful fro me. I hope that it will help you as well. I am happy that you have such a good relationship with your Pdoc. I have yet to make my initial appointment with the Pdoc Tricare approved me for.

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Thu, 10-13-2005 - 9:07am

Morning


Glad you called her and got things straightened out.

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Thu, 10-13-2005 - 9:50am

(((((keli))))) glad to hear you called pdoc. i kinda got the impression you were more down then you were letting on. and i'm really glad the lamictal hasn't produced the rash. maybe this is the med you've been looking for. will keep fingers crossed for ya.


as for driving to work in the dark, and the depression seeping in and AF and pms/pmdd

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Thu, 10-13-2005 - 10:39am

yeah...its cold and dreary here too...well, i say cold...but mid 60s for us in the mornings and dreary/damp with the wind blowing is COLD!!! I went to smoke a cigg this morning and starting shivering...I know, I know...I'm still warm compared to some...but I'm not used to this, as we had almost 90 yesterday and HOT. Everyone is getting sick from the change in temps...

I want my hypomania back so badly right now...so so so so so badly!

All I want to do today is go home, get under my warm blankets, take an Ativan, turn on junk t.v., and chill out all day. My dh has the car as he is working, but as soon as he gets done, I told him to call me and I am leaving work for the day and I may do JUST THAT!

But, in the meantime, I have to do SOMETHING productive to fight this, like I tell you all the time!!! :) I did some work earlier, but its only 10:38 and time seems to have stopped.

Smoking ciggarettes and drinking coffee just doesn't seem to count at work.

Love ya,

k.

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Thu, 10-13-2005 - 10:42am

i sure do hope the lamictal will kick in once i get up to dose!!! i know it helps a lot of people.

i am going to leave early today if my dh gets his job finished early today...and tomorrow is friday, thank goodness!!!

i have a lot of work to do, but i don't wanna work today at all...ugh.

i'm okay, just down and out and tired and pmsin...oh what fun it is!

great, that just reminded me how close Christmas is...i have one paycheck left after this one...!!!!

love ya

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Thu, 10-13-2005 - 10:42am

once again...i could have written your post !!!

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Thu, 10-13-2005 - 10:46am

oh lord...christmas...i can't even comprehend it right now.

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Thu, 10-13-2005 - 11:24am

Keli,


I'm glad you got the official ok from the pdoc about the Lithium--after a while we get so in tune with our meds we often can make the right decision, but it's best when we can get them to rubber stamp it, huh?


Hopefully once you get through this patch of PMS/PMDD, the depression will ease off--I know it used to for me.