Bethie!!!

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Bethie!!!
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Thu, 10-13-2005 - 12:41pm

WTH are you? How are you? Haven't heard from you in a couple days now...just check in with me when you can so I will know you are okay.

Love you tons baby girl...

Keli

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Registered: 11-19-2004
In reply to: keli003
Thu, 10-13-2005 - 1:36pm

hi chickie...


things are okay... nothing spectacular.

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: keli003
Thu, 10-13-2005 - 2:00pm

it makes total sense that your happiness emotion is dulled...mood stabilizers do it to me big time...

i talked to my pdoc last night and she told me get back off the lithium...it wasn't doing crap for me again...and now that i'm going to 50 mgs of lamictal (tomorrow night) she was taking me off lithium anyway...600 mgs of lithium wasn't even close the therapeutic, 900 mgs was too much on 3 mood stabilizers...soooooo, i'm supposed to increase ativan when i feel the least little bit of anxiety or agitation coming on...and increase my risperdal too...she says the lamictal will kick in once i go over 100 mgs in 2 weeks and i should start feeling a lot better...

i'm more down now than anything...its a combination of pmdd (i hate it so much), too many mood stabilizers in my system, and the weather...its sooooo gray, dreary, and almost chilly again...dark a lot, even for Florida...anxiety is better with the added ativan and risperdal and if i could stay out of the freaking depression, i would be okay...its the down times that really really get to me...i miss my hypo times so bad right now!

happy birthday to my bethie!!! i know how you feel about bdays...mine is the 24th...i won't be alone, but i always always always feel alone, no matter what! i hate bdays so much, always have my entire life, starting at age 15. sucks.

i cried yesterday too...for nothing really...and the day before that too...i hate the depression part...i can't increase my a/d though, not even a little bit...

hang in there, honey...i know you may get a bit triggered at your parents, but try really hard to just not think of it...just think of CAKE! and please eat some for me...

love you too...

check in with me later on email so i won't worry...or just post me tomorrow.

xoxo