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Sat, 10-15-2005 - 1:16pm

I hope everyone is doing okay. I'm here and somewhat surviving. I am stressed to the max by school and very unsure of myself. I guess I'm struggling a lot. I'm sick of meds and all this garbage.

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Mon, 10-17-2005 - 7:48am

honey, first of all hello! i miss you! secondly, i totally totally LOVE LOVE LOVE your siggy thing...

NOW...on to you! you get those negative thoughts right out of your BP brain! you know that's why you are second guessing yourself...its BP talking to you big time! YOU ARE A PRODUCTIVE member of society. You're beautiful, you're taking time out to help other people, you're in school (yes, its overwhelming sometimes, but that's why its SCHOOL!!!). You're doing everything you need to be doing. You may be stressed, but so are millions of other people. Make your lists and cross one thing off at a time. You can do NO MORE than that. Okay?

Now, you do realize that you are coming off meds, right? That's probably why things seem worse than they are, or why things seem more difficult right now.

I want you to talk to your pdoc about the Lamictal starter pack for Depakote users (I forget what you guys call it...Epavil??? sorry...). YOU NEED TO BE STARTING IT, IT TAKES 6 WEEKS TO GET UP TO 50 MGS A DAY, in order to move to 100. I am just now up to 50 mgs and its week 5 for me. I have 2 weeks of 50 mgs then I can go to 100 mgs. It works well. But you are going to be without any stablization medication for a long time and I really worry about that.

Can you do that? Talk to your pdoc about it? You're in school, you have other responsibilities...you can't afford a mania, or a depression...ya know?

Try to focus on one thing at a time...and try to stay positive...I can hear it in your "voice" that you're a bit down...keep talking to me...promise!

Love ya,

Keli