Feeling down
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| Mon, 10-17-2005 - 10:38pm |
I know no one is here at night usually, but I wanted to just type some feelings. I am feeling pretty down right now. I feel lost. i am exsisting day by day and nothing seems to change. I don't feel i make much difference. I have been trying to draw and it all seems foriegn to me. I do ok and then i totally mess the picture up and it is so messed up I have to start all over again. I feel why bother. Don't mind me, I am just having a bad night. Feeling alone and empty. Not suicidal! TV is doing nothing for me. I did watch a movie earlier and I did zone out in it for a short time without thinking of anything but the movie but then it all hits you in your face again...the pain i feel hits me. I get hit in the stomach again and have the wind knocked out of me. WHEN will this all end? have you ever known you

(((((((((tina)))))))) i wish i knew what to say. i know you are down and i know a good part of the reason why. i wish i could wave a wand and make the pain and sorrow go away, but i think it's just something we have to learn to live with. the love stays, the pain does lessen though eventually. i can't explain it much better than that. but it does get easier.
i hope this finds you feeling a bit better.
hugs & love,
traci
As much as we wish there were, there are no magic words to say...to make it all better...so all I will say is that I love you and I hope today is a better day for you...You are doing an amazing job of keeping your head above water and I hope you know that. You're an inspiration to many of us here.
Love and Hugs,
Keli
Tina,
It's all part of the grieving process--it's just rougher because of the BP and how close you were to your mother.