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I hit My Wall
| Mon, 12-13-2010 - 2:15pm |
It doesnt happen often...but when It does,
IT ROCKS ME TO MY CORE.
Suddenly I feel like Im scrambling - (in my head) and FIDGETY as if Im shaking to get that fix.
Im so meticulous, that when my house of cards come tumbling down....I know EXACTLY what unraveled me.
1. I had a date on Friday
2. We went to the hospital Saturday night (still no baby); he reached out to my daughter's boyfriend to check on the baby status
3. I start

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Michelle,
I have only a few seconds, soooo crazy rushed... but I just wanted to say I admire your thorough approach and that your Xap is a total narcissistic asswipe.
:( RIGHT?!?!?!? :(
sux man. P'd me off!
Have a good day You !!!
Michelle,
You don't sound like you are ready to date yet.
Dearest Michelle,
Thanks Jen!!!!
Well, regarding the dating - I am doing it CASUALLY. Its worth more to me to do it casually - than it is to just NOT date.
It's teaching me stuff. If it DOES.....get to be TOO much...I will DEFINITELY stop going out.
I will figure out how to cope with this...I always do.
It's simply a bit emotionally "overwhelming" to be WEIGHED down by all my serious stuff. Im feeling the need to escape. I wont. But the URGE is STRONG.
Thank you for taking the time to respond!!!
xoxo,
Michelle
The fact that he expects you to wait even a day while he caters to his W and hides you in a secret corner is an insult all the way around. If you waited on him and then started a relationship with this guy in RL what have you taught him? You have taught him that his needs are a lot more important than yours and that you will do anything to keep him in your life even if it means throwing your dignity to the wayside. You have shown this guy that your world revolves around him and that is not good. It feeds his narcissism.
Michelle, my belle.....
No more cyber stalking, here? In the past we have had gals reset their NC meter because of it. I don't want to do that to you because you have been working so hard at this, so I will let it pass...THIS TIME. Please, understand that there are going to be walls that get in the way...you can crash into them, or you can gingerly tear them down. It's your choice.
I am sorry you wiped out today, so get back on that skate board and ride, Sally, ride. ;-) Take a little time to nurse those bruises, but you are so much more together than you give yourself credit for.
((Hugs)))
Foggy! Dammit Man!!!
I'm at work right now but I wanted to reply and extend my virtual hugs to you! I don't have a ton of wisdom for you outside of what you already know yourself and have already said here. BUT I can tell you that I admire your strength, your humanity,
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