Grief, from a surprising source.

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Registered: 07-13-2010
Grief, from a surprising source.
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Wed, 12-15-2010 - 1:12am

I have been at a cabin in the woods with a dear friend of mine for the last few days.

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-22-2009
Wed, 12-15-2010 - 6:18am

((ILE))

I can totally relate. It happened to me about 6 weeks out. I never cried over losing Xmm, but I did have a breakdown similar to yours over my own actions and behavior. It was very a cathartic experience and like you said, the feelings of guilt and sadness hit me very hard. The good news is that you are now in a good position to start forgiving yourself, which will lead to letting go of many self destructive feelings and emotions. As we always say here, ending is a process, and one that cannot be rushed.

You are getting back in touch with your authentic self which can be a very rewarding experience.

((Hugs))

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
iVillage Member
Registered: 07-21-2009
Wed, 12-15-2010 - 8:58am

This is just another wonderful step in the healing process.

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-23-2010
Wed, 12-15-2010 - 9:27am

I know how you feel. Don't let this one mistake make you feel un-redeemable. Use this as a catalyst to live a better, more honest life. You can't change your past but you can change your future. I can not understand who that woman was (ME) when I was in the A. It's scary to think that I could do the things I did and that I am was capable of doing those wicked things. I have vowed to never sink that low again. Each day I am thankful for being true and honest.

iVillage Member
Registered: 07-17-2004
Wed, 12-15-2010 - 10:10am
Hi love, to grief our actions for what we did is a very good step. It brings us to a better place and it does feel good to let go doesn't it? It's very cleansing and I am happy for you the insights you found within yourself:)