OCD too, anyone?
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| Tue, 10-25-2005 - 12:45pm |
I saw my therapist this morning and have an appt with pdoc in about an hour, but my t suggested that I had a combination of hypomania and OCD (obsessive-compulsive disorder) and that although they sound too similar to distinguish, my pdoc might prescribe something specifically to help me thru the obsessive thoughts.
As I've shared here a few times, not only does my mind race and the "voices" in my head never shut up!, but sometimes I get locked on thoughts that are extremely unhealthy and it takes everything I have not to act out on them. For the past week, for instance, I've been struggling not to contact someone and give them a piece of my mind. You'd think by now, in a mentally stable person, the thought would have passed. But not for me. I've been locked and loaded with this one since last Saturday (actually it's been more than one week). I think the underlying anger that was motivating me to make the phone call has subsided, but I'm still locked on just dialing that particular number and making the contact, even though I'm not as angry as I was last week. Cognitively, I know the phone call would accomplish absolutely nothing, probably make an already bad situation worse and cause additional harm to me, but I can't seem to get the thought out of my head. I also realize that I'm probably NOT going to make the phone call, I just can't stop thinking about it. And the voices are giving me all kinds of wonderful, slanderous things to say!!!!!!!
Can anyone relate????? It's tough being us. Love, Mo.


been there done that, am there, many many times...can't ever just let things go...have gotten myself into trouble over that one...be careful! those voices have told me to say things that i KNEW i shouldn't say out loud, and i did anyway!
LOL
yes, sometimes its fun to be us
:)