eh hem....everyone check in please
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eh hem....everyone check in please
| Tue, 11-01-2005 - 9:47am |
ok...this board is very very quiet...so whether you are down and out, or stable or manic...we want to hear from you today...
how are things going?
what have you been doing?
give us some positive things in your life, or things you can do for you....
ready, set, GO !!!



I am going to my pdoc today to get the test results from my lithium level and other tests(don't know what they tested for exactly). She prescribed me lithium 2 weeks ago thinking that I may be bi-polar. I was previously diagnosed as clinically depressed and GAD. I am so confused because I don't know which result will be better. I think if it is bi-polar I may be happy since at least I will be on the right meds and hopefully can stop suffering as the a/d and anti-anxiety meds have not been helping too much.
Whatever the outcome I hope I can get on the right meds and feel more in control of my emotions and life in general.
Sorry I'm such a downer today but thought I'd check in anyway.
Alison
Hi Donna and all,
I'm starting to feel a bit better...forced myself to do some work, something I've been putting off, and MADE myself focus on it, with the help of one of my secretaries!!! It seemed to help. It also helped that I took an energy pill. If I don't get meds from pdoc, then I will take my own. I will talk firmly and honestly with pdoc tomorrow though.
I'm going to Goodwill on my lunch break in a bit. Am broke this month, but who cares? When am I ever NOT broke?
Positive things:
I got my car back and the belt can be tightened--yes, if dh can't do it, the place WILL
I have a job to go to, and that I like mostly
I have many blessings in my life
My dh who is so patient with me
My parents...even though they get on my nerves! lol
What I can do for myself:
Fight this stupid depression and kick my own butt when I need it...but rely on you guys when I can't fight it...
Figure out how to get more organized and not so scattered all the time
Stop thinking about everything and just LIVE...I keep missing out on life by thinking so much about my stupid illness!
Learn how to look at myself in the mirror again
Go to bed early tonight
Stop feeling so guilty, I can't change overnight and I am not SUPERWOMAN
I'm here, I think-LOL!
I'm here. Things are going ok, still hitting brick walls with legal aid people but am beginning to see the writing on said brick walls. But such is life.
Today I am actually taking a bit of a breather. Last night about wore this old girl out! I haven't walked that much in a very long time! LOL! So I took a short nap when I got home this morning and now I'm ready to go again;)
Lets see here........My kids are a huge positive in my life:) I've got a great tdoc and pdoc. My job - I got a thank you note from a student for the goody bags I handed out yesterday:) The fact that I'm passing algebra!!! YAY!!!!!!! AND probably the best news of all.......my gyn called and my test is NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!! I get to breathe again after 2 very long weeks;)
Today I will continue to take it easy, be kind to myself and not get too tightly wound about the legal situation:)
Hugs & Love,
Traci
Thank you for checking in....I want everyone to check in...no matter what.
I hope all goes well at the pdoc and you get the answers/meds you need to feel better.
God could not be everywhere, so
Marci
I'm sorry about the bus...HOW FLIPPIN RUDE !!!
God could not be everywhere, so
TRACI !!!!!
I'm doing the happy dance about the test results !!!
God could not be everywhere, so
Hey all. Having kind of a downer day today. I had another nightmare that basicially told me I was no good and I can't do anything right in my subconious mind. It even included a part where I attempted SI - and that's when I don't have my stupid ex invading my dreams. I can't eat it's bothering me so much. The good news is I get off earlier tonight. I'm thinking I'm going to take a taxi home and tape the Amazing Race so I can get a really early night. (Like that will do any good - I'm still going to wake up in the middle of the night.)
Anyway, I'm going to go find somebody with some Tylonal for headaches. I'll talk to you all later.
I hope you get some good sleep !!
God could not be everywhere, so
sorry I wasnt here yesterday, I had school then a study group then cleaning house then babysitting then more cleaning house. I wont be around much this week because its a really busy week for me, so dont worry, Im ok. Im a little down but nothing too bad and after tomorrow I will probably be manic, so eh life is good. I am sorry the rest of you are having such a hard time, it will get better someday.
Love and Hugs
Rebekah