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| Wed, 11-02-2005 - 6:55am |
Well...ya just gotta love BP...
I went home yesterday, totally exhausted...totally depressed...went home, got in my bed, and stayed there all night long...i read my book and my dh cooked dinner...he always takes care of me...does all the cooking and cleaning...i ate...talked briefly to my mother...told her i did NOT feel good, and had to go to bed...took my meds, minus the Topamax, and went to sleep around 7:30 and slept hard all night long. I woke up this morning feeling much better.
Here's the thing...I know that when I take too many mood stabilizers (right now its Lamictal and Topamax) that I get depressed much more often. I stay on the Topamax because at one time it DID help me lose weight. It hasn't in a long time. My pdoc wants me on two mood stabs to ward off the mania, but if they make me so depressed all the time, what do I do?
Do I ask to increase my Prozac?
MEDS REALLY GET ME CRAZY! Oh wait, I'm already there.
Guess I need to have a real heart to heart with her. I am not happy with the way I've been feeling...yes, I really like the Lamictal. Its the steadiest I've been (really, it is). I just need the depression under more control.
As for the ADHD, I highly doubt she is going to RX anything for that, but we'll see. I will mention it to her.
I also have to tell her that I didn't go through with the EMDR in therapy. But that should be MY choice. I am not experiencing any PTSD symptoms. My only complaints right now are:
1. Depression
2. No FOCUS, No concentration ability
Everything else is either under some semblance of control, or I'm able to deal with it.
Those two things are not.
Sorry to "think out loud" here, but I needed to before my appointment in an hour.
I'll update you all when I get back.
Love you all,
Keli

Keli
If you didn't leave yet....you NEED to push the idea of getting on something for the adhd...I really don't think you are going to get anywhere without her treating it.
God could not be everywhere, so
hey girl...
sent you an email yesterday.