Confusing times

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Registered: 12-14-2004
Confusing times
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Mon, 11-07-2005 - 1:23pm

I don't know if this is a really appropriate subject or anything, so if it isn't, please tell me and I won't bring it up again. But I just have something on my mind right now that I need to share and get off my chest. It's really causing me major anxity and down right sickness today.

I had a dream last night were I was being sedused by an older man (I'm not telling you excatly who it was, but it was disturbingly older) and I woke up extremely aroused and hyped up about the dream. Now, I've been sexually frustrated for a very long time and when I have dreams like this, it just sends me further down the spiral and I can't shake the sickness I feel because I am so lonely. I'm still a virgin, which I guess is a good thing, but I have this overwhelming feeling that I'm just going to go for the first thing that really asks for it. I don't hold sex in a high regard (I think there are more important things in life to focus on than something that is completely natural) so any buck says I'm going to do something really stupid and this dream is making me even more parinod

I feel sick to my stomach right now and I don't want to be at work. I'm thinking maybe I might take an E-Day, but I'm not too sure. I don't want to get ratted out when I get home (I just want to be left alone to try and deal with this, but it won't happen). I'll think of something.

Thanks for listening. Again, if this is innappropriate, please tell me.

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Mon, 11-07-2005 - 1:53pm

I guess it depends on the person and if its inappropriate here or not.

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Mon, 11-07-2005 - 3:42pm

I guess it was just a vent, but I still feel really bad about the dream. I feel very lonely most of the time to begin and it's like in my dreams, I keep telling myself the answer to my problem is have to sex. Not to menion, as I said, it leaves me severly frustrated and there's very little I can do about it. I do masterbate from time to time and I've been doing so since I was 17, but that's become severly boring and it doesn't help anymore.

Does anybody have any advice on how to at least satify myself with out putting myself in a possition where I'm lible to do something really stupid?

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Mon, 11-07-2005 - 3:49pm
have you ever checked out the Like A Virgin board?
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Mon, 11-07-2005 - 4:19pm
That's what I was going to say...time for new toys !!!
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Mon, 11-07-2005 - 4:23pm
well, you know they say great minds think alike! :)

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