I'm here barely...

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Registered: 03-25-2003
I'm here barely...
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Tue, 11-08-2005 - 7:55am

I am in so much physical pain right now....have been since Friday night...i don't know if this is Fibro or Rheumatoid Arthritis or both...my joints are SOOO swollen, my hands are almost double the size they should be...I didn't come to work yesterday...but I'm here today...I'm going to the dr. today at 3:00. Nothing helps...not Aleve, not Ibuprofen...

So, I laid around, in pain, from Friday through last night...soaking in Sea Salt like the nurse told me to do...taking pain relievers that did absolutely nothing...every single joint in my body HURTS LIKE HELL and is swollen...my knees are making this HORRIBLE creaking sound and I can barely get up and down my stairs at home...

I got depressed...big time depressed...just laying there in pain, thinking about everything...being broke, being broke for Christmas...always being SICK...either with BP or this crap now, whatever it is...scared its only going to get worse and how the heck am I going to continue to work like this???

The fatigue is KILLING ME too...I was totally and completely wiped out, no energy whatsoever...I slept so much, but I couldn't help it. I hate that! I'm not a daytime sleeper. I don't need naps...but when this happens, these flare ups, I get totally exhausted so easily...

If I have to quit working, OMG, I'm going to lose it completely...my job is my sanity...

Anyway, trying not to think about it in those terms...first, I gotta figure out WHAT IT IS and then how to treat it and see what happens...I SO don't WANT to go on disability.

I haven't really read anyone's posts, so I hope you're all okay...I won't be around after noon, because I have this charity thing to do at another building, then the doctor...please wish me luck that the doctor will NOT blow me off and will DO something. I am at my wits end now, with this pain. I was ready to go buy some painkillers off the street, but luckily, I have no earthly idea how to do that! lol

Love to all,

Keli

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Tue, 11-08-2005 - 8:58am

Gentle hugs for you Keli. I am so sorry you are going through this right now. Try to stay positive. Let us know what the doctor says.

Missy

 
 
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Registered: 04-06-2005
Tue, 11-08-2005 - 8:59am

(((((((Keli)))))))))))


I'm so sorry you are in so much pain...I wish there was something I could do.


I will send tons and tons of p&pt your way for this afternoon.

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Registered: 05-11-2003
Tue, 11-08-2005 - 9:38am
I am sorry you are hurting so much, I hope you can find some relief at the DR today.
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Registered: 11-18-2003
Tue, 11-08-2005 - 9:48am

keli,


i hope the doc can get you squared away today. i'm sorry you are in so much pain.


i wish there was something i could do for you too. but i'll send some prayers your way.


i wish i could say i was good or even ok, but i crashed hard over the weekend. so life continues with bp:(


love ya


traci

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Tue, 11-08-2005 - 10:16am

Keli,


With the swelling it's probably primarily arthritis with a "good" dose of FMS thrown in.