I'm here...again barely...

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Registered: 03-25-2003
I'm here...again barely...
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Wed, 11-09-2005 - 1:04pm

Went to the doctor yesterday...he did a thorough examination...blood tests, xrays, lots of questions, etc...and I don't have Fibromyalgia...but I do have Rheumatoid Arthritis...and its pretty well along already...I'm still in so much pain...my fingers, wrists, knees and ankles and the worst joints effected so far...ya know, the really important ones...i'm so upset, but not letting anyone know...

My doctor gave me an RX for Lodine, but all it did was make me SICK, and I just got to work at 1:00 because I was soooooooooo sleepy and groggy...so that's out...

Once he gets the blood work back, in a few days, we'll know more, but my xrays were bad...

I don't know what to do...I want to cry, but I have to be strong so nobody else will worry about me...but I am in so much pain, I don't know what to do...I dont know how to handle it...I am at work, and am simply trying to distract myself...its all i can do at this point...doc said no exercising period...until we can figure out the extent of the damage to my joints...

I think about the future and my quality of life...I thought I'd done something wonderful by fighting BP and almost almost almost winning against that...now this. Its like God isn't through yet...and I don't know how much more I can take...

I can't catch a break here...its so disheartening...and so depressing...I'm 35 years old...I have a mental illness and now I have a progressive physical illness to go along with it...its not fair.

I can't talk to anyone like this but you guys...I've just been blowing it off to my dh, and parents...and my ds...but its not something to just blow off...and I'm angry, and I want to cry...I need a friend so badly...because I am so alone...and I am trying so hard to be strong...but I am in so much pain, and the depression is trying so hard to kick my butt at the same time...

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Wed, 11-09-2005 - 1:14pm

((((keli)))) i don't know what to say. i'm so sorry that it's not getting better. but hold hope. the doc will figure out something you can take to get the pain under control.


i really think you need to tell dh and your parents and your ds. you are strong and they all know you are. but this is not something that you can help, and you will need help with some things. if they know the condition they will understand better. does that make sense? i hope it does.


i really hope you start feeling better very soon. i wish i had more for you, 'cause you've helped me so much when i need it. i'm here for you though.


love ya,


traci

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Wed, 11-09-2005 - 1:39pm

(((((((((((((oh Keli))))))))))))))))

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Registered: 11-19-2004
Wed, 11-09-2005 - 1:49pm

oh my poor baby girl!

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Wed, 11-09-2005 - 2:13pm

Oh (((((((Keli))))))))
I am so sorry that you have joined the RA club. It is so hard to hear that you have this progressive, and if not treated aggressively joint destructing disease. I am going to give you the link to the IVillage RA board. I absolutely love this board. They are a great comfort and support for me.

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Wed, 11-09-2005 - 2:50pm

(((((Keli))))),


I'm so sorry, Sweetie, but on the bright side, although RA is NO picnic it is infinitely more treatable than FMS--like Cindy says, anymore

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Wed, 11-09-2005 - 3:03pm

I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. Please know that you do not have to go through this alone. We are here for you. Please let your family know too. I am sure they will be supportive of you too. I don't know much about RA, but I know my grandma has it and has had it for a long time and she is still walking etc at 80 years old. I hope you get some pain relief soon.

Missy