Cyn

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Cyn
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Thu, 11-10-2005 - 2:01pm

Okay, this pain is really really getting to me...nothing is helping...not Ibuprofen, not Aleve, not the stupid Lodine my GP gave me...he won't rx anything else til I go to the Rheumy after my test results come back in...I'm totally exhausted, I mean TOTALLY exhausted...and I'm completely DEPRESSED. Did you ever get depressed? Or totally exhuasted? Does RA cause this horrible fatigue and depression?

My BP is almost secondary right now...truly. I don't even think about it much, because of this other crap that is going on with me physically! It hurts so much...my mom used to complain all the time about hurting a lot, and I used to get frustrated with her...now I KNOW! Every part of my body hurts, even my stupid eyelids!

I am going home from work in a little while to take a hot sea salt bath...I just can't sit here anymore...

My GP said it wasn't Fibro too, but I really think he is wrong...I think its both, because not only do my joints hurt like heck, but so do my muscles...

I don't know how to get through it...I'm so lost.

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In reply to: keli003
Thu, 11-10-2005 - 2:22pm

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My heart is just breaking for you. Everything you are going through is so normal when you have a disorder that causes so much pain. Yes, I have gotten depressed because of my pain level. I still do from time to time now, 5 years later.

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In reply to: keli003
Thu, 11-10-2005 - 2:29pm

Thank you so much...I feel like I am complaining all the time...but I don't have anyone else to complain to...It helps to be able to hear that I will feel better one day...right now I don't believe it...but I felt that way about BP once too...

Love you!

Keli

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Thu, 11-10-2005 - 2:52pm

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You are not complaining, so don't you dare apologize!! You are venting. I will never stop helping you. EVER!!
I know it is so hard to believe that you will feel better. When you are hurting it feels like it will go on forever. Hon it won't. Please believe me. You are confused, and that is ok too. There are times when I get confused still and angry and frustrated.


There are times when I feel like I want to divorce my mind and my body, because it always seems like I have one controlled (as controlled as possible)

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In reply to: keli003
Sat, 11-12-2005 - 11:07am
{{{{Cyn}}}} I'm sorry you're in so much pain. Chronic pain is the worst. RA & Fibro are so painful, I know people with both. Shoot, I'm at the beginning of RA, it's only a matter of time for me. I hope those results come back soon. I'm sorry I haven't been here, I'm in an emotinal cyclone right now but I'm glad I stopped in. I'll keep you in my thoughts.


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