Bring it on!

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Registered: 11-22-2009
Bring it on!
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Fri, 12-24-2010 - 7:51am

I want to hear from each and everyone of you who has decided to recommit to NC (today, right now), whether you have fallen down that slippery slope recently, or have already been walking the walk. New Year resolutions are right around the corner so there is no better time than now to say out loud to the Universe, "Silence is Eloquent, Silence is Dignified, Silence is Heard."

So, who's on board?

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha

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Registered: 04-01-2010
In reply to: iddy2009
Fri, 12-24-2010 - 9:01am

(((Oh, Iddy!!)))

I am here and FULLY present in my RL (although I am currently hiding in my bedroom, away from the mayhem in my house full of visiting adults, dogs and cats!!) My stumble last week was what I needed (??) to break through some internal blockage. I am so thankful I did not get a response. I am embarassed and perhaps a little ashamed that I texted him after nearly 10 weeks of NC. But, like all of us, I can't change the past; can only concentrate on the future. I am sorry that I interjected myself back into his life, however briefly, because it was a totally selfish thing I did. And I don't want to be that type of selfish person any longer. Not to mention the realization once again that whatever sadness and neediness I was feeling is something I needed to address privately, with myself. I should have had more confidence in my own strength. I will not doubt my strength ever again!!

So onward and upward!! This past week, once I got over the horror of what I did, has been phenomenal in terms of clarity, acceptance, optimism and the true belief that I am on my way to a much better place. I am HAPPY!! :smileyvery-happy:

I can't articulate well enough what I am feeling inside, but I really feel like I am OVER him. However, my antenna are raised and honed so that I will sense if I'm starting to go "back there." I am well aware that if I begin to feel like I want to go back there, it is not him that I want but rather some type of comfort from my fears.

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
iVillage Member
Registered: 11-22-2009
In reply to: iddy2009
Fri, 12-24-2010 - 9:18am

(((Alwayst))

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Music to my ears. It is my honor to zap you with my magic NC Wand for saying all the right things.

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 05-15-2010
In reply to: iddy2009
Fri, 12-24-2010 - 10:17am

Hi Iddy,

I am on board.

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Registered: 07-17-2004
In reply to: iddy2009
Fri, 12-24-2010 - 10:22am
Hi iddy,

I am on board! Last night I was feeling lonely and sorry for myself and then I heard a voice ask why I don't you want to be healthy? I do want to be healthy and seeing your post reaffirms this for me. When I hear that voice of reason I am going to answer it with reasons I truly believe in. I am going to feel it from the bottom of my heart and own it!

Happy Holidays to all<3
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Registered: 04-23-2010
In reply to: iddy2009
Fri, 12-24-2010 - 11:10am

Me too, me too!!!

Beat me about the brain and head with the Magic NC Wand. Beat some sense into me.

Today is a week of NC. I have

We only miss what could have been. I know I don't miss what it really was.

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-22-2009
In reply to: iddy2009
Fri, 12-24-2010 - 11:43am

((MC, Jen, RBM)))

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 08-25-2010
In reply to: iddy2009
Fri, 12-24-2010 - 11:45am
Loving leader -
I am still NC - still committed and this year will be the best one of my life - So many new things coming and I am scared to death - but whee what a ride! May you have a very Merry Christmas -
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iVillage Member
Registered: 12-09-2010
In reply to: iddy2009
Fri, 12-24-2010 - 11:48am

I'm here.

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-14-2010
In reply to: iddy2009
Fri, 12-24-2010 - 1:01pm

IM IN!

NEW LIFE, LIKE HEAVEN IN 2011!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
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Registered: 01-18-2010
In reply to: iddy2009
Fri, 12-24-2010 - 6:17pm
Hola!! I am here stilling rolling along. I realize I gotta chime in here a bit more...I misses a lot. And I didn't like what was going on in my absence. I am so sorry to see it. Goodness. Happy you all are recommiting. This was a horrific time for me last year. I was really depressed. All I had was this board and I made it. So can you. Life still isn't a bed of roses, but I have my dignity and self respect and that is the best present I ever gave myself. Give yourself the same. I will be here to shop with you. Blessings to all....
Luvin
Yo Soy EL Capitan de Mi Vida

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