i don't even know where to begin...i am still in lots of pain...am still depressed...weekend sucked...am broke...got in a fight with my dh last night, and we never fight...i'm so fatigued from the RA/fibro (yes, i have both according to my test results) that i can barely function...went to bed around 9 got up at 8, and had to drag myself out of bed...am at work, and sitting here, hurting...nothing is helping the pain go away even for a little while...i hate my dh right now...me and my ds got home last night from the movie store, he was "playing" with my ds, and hit him in the back, well he hit him hard, my ds got upset cuz it hurt...and went into a rage..he called him a cry baby...that made it worse...my ds went upstairs to his room, he hit his bedroom door with his fist and made a huge hole in it...my dh went up there and yelled at him a lot, my ds told him to shut up, blah blah blah, dh was pissed...he came down and said something, i can't remember, and i said, well you DID hit him in the back hard...and then he proceeded to YELL AT ME...i didn't say a word, just went outside for a while...came back in, dh left in my car and stayed gone a few hours...i didn't even care...i didn't say a word to him this morning when i left for work...
i just can't take all this...i cried this weekend at my mom's cuz of it all, then she started crying, then i felt bad, cuz she deals with a lot too...i was angry, depressed, and very down...very sad, very upset...
dh isn't being very supportive of this ra/fibro stuff...
my bp is actually pretty stable, but i only have a week left of lamictal and am out of money to get any...
i'm really, REALLY sick of life and i just can't take much more...i've gained a LOT of weight lately too...i can't even exercise because of my pain level...
i hate to even post, because i'm so negative...i'm not doing anyone anywhere any good...
Thank you Donna...I feel better this afternoon, not physically, but stronger and more able to deal with this...it may not last, but for now, I'm not going to let this beat me...I will live my life...as for everything else, it will work out...the money thing will be so much better after Christmas is over...I don't know WTF to do about Christmas...but I can't even think about it right now...ugh.
Anyway, thank you so much for caring and being a real friend...I love you all so much here...I don't think I could make it through without all of you. I'm serious.
As for dh, whatever. I won't let a man cause me anymore grief than I already have going on...period. BTDT too many times.
Called my GP's office to see about my referral to a Rheumatologist. Waiting on a phone call back...its horrible the way you have to play with the HMOs. I hate it.
I'm so glad you are feeling a bit better...try pdoc now and just tell her what's going on and ask for freebies...they get them for a reason, TO GIVE THEM OUT !!!
i don't even know where to begin...i am still in lots of pain...am still depressed...weekend sucked...am broke...got in a fight with my dh last night, and we never fight...i'm so fatigued from the RA/fibro (yes, i have both according to my test results) that i can barely function...went to bed around 9 got up at 8, and had to drag myself out of bed...am at work, and sitting here, hurting...nothing is helping the pain go away even for a little while...i hate my dh right now...me and my ds got home last night from the movie store, he was "playing" with my ds, and hit him in the back, well he hit him hard, my ds got upset cuz it hurt...and went into a rage..he called him a cry baby...that made it worse...my ds went upstairs to his room, he hit his bedroom door with his fist and made a huge hole in it...my dh went up there and yelled at him a lot, my ds told him to shut up, blah blah blah, dh was pissed...he came down and said something, i can't remember, and i said, well you DID hit him in the back hard...and then he proceeded to YELL AT ME...i didn't say a word, just went outside for a while...came back in, dh left in my car and stayed gone a few hours...i didn't even care...i didn't say a word to him this morning when i left for work...
i just can't take all this...i cried this weekend at my mom's cuz of it all, then she started crying, then i felt bad, cuz she deals with a lot too...i was angry, depressed, and very down...very sad, very upset...
dh isn't being very supportive of this ra/fibro stuff...
my bp is actually pretty stable, but i only have a week left of lamictal and am out of money to get any...
i'm really, REALLY sick of life and i just can't take much more...i've gained a LOT of weight lately too...i can't even exercise because of my pain level...
i hate to even post, because i'm so negative...i'm not doing anyone anywhere any good...
ok...so what if you do no one any good here today?
God could not be everywhere, so
Thank you Donna...I feel better this afternoon, not physically, but stronger and more able to deal with this...it may not last, but for now, I'm not going to let this beat me...I will live my life...as for everything else, it will work out...the money thing will be so much better after Christmas is over...I don't know WTF to do about Christmas...but I can't even think about it right now...ugh.
Anyway, thank you so much for caring and being a real friend...I love you all so much here...I don't think I could make it through without all of you. I'm serious.
As for dh, whatever. I won't let a man cause me anymore grief than I already have going on...period. BTDT too many times.
Called my GP's office to see about my referral to a Rheumatologist. Waiting on a phone call back...its horrible the way you have to play with the HMOs. I hate it.
So, how are YOU doing?
Love you
I'm so glad you are feeling a bit better...try pdoc now and just tell her what's going on and ask for freebies...they get them for a reason, TO GIVE THEM OUT !!!
God could not be everywhere, so