Keli
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| Tue, 11-15-2005 - 3:37am |
Have I mentioned that I hate (REALLY HATE) codeine?? I spent most of the day being exhausted and needing sleep. Then, since I've come home, I can't fall asleep. I even took a double dose (can take 1-2 pills, usually only take 1) at 11:30 figuring it would knock me out. It made me REALLY groggy and loopy for a couple hours, but I never could quite fall asleep. Now I am wide awake. BLECH!! Not to mention it gives me horrible heartburn!
My mother was trying to convince me that if I am in too much pain, I should come down and stay at her place after surgery...like that would make ANY sense?? She kept going on about having the guest room - but I have my bed here - why on earth would I want to stay in that nuthouse? Here, I can sleep in my own bed, Mike can help me out with stuff, and I can relax. There, I have to put up with her and my dad and my loser brother...plus it isn't "home" and home is always nicer. Mike is getting more frustrated about my mom every day.
Hopefully, we can keep them on track to take Savannah until Sat or Sun - I REALLY don't want her home until I am somewhat back to normal. But, if it gets to be an issue, I'll have Mike pick her up. Just isn't worth the fight.
Needless to say, I am almost like I am manic right now. Wide awake but still fuzzy brained. I am bored out of my skull and just dread the alarm going off in a couple hours because I KNOW I am going to need more sleep.
ANYWAY, I hope you are doing ok. Hanging in there at least. I am a bit flustrated and tired with all of this and want it done. My twin is growing slowly again, even though I am still taking the steroids. It just isn't funny. Now, most of the growth is in front near my windpipe...makes swallowing fun. Thankfully, it is growing slow enough that we have to worry about my air being cut off.
Ok - so let me know how you are doing. Hopefully it is better then I am. I am heading back to try and get some sleep. Talk to you later
Love
T

Well, dang it all to heck! Stupid TOS, wish I could use the words I want to use...I think I am doing better than you are...this morning anyway and for that I am grateful...I've learned to be grateful for every hour that I feel okay. I am hypomanic today and I know why...I did it on purpose, no Topamax last night...screw that depression crap...I went home last night and pouted...cried...finally talked to Eric a little bit...told him I felt very much alone in this, and wasn't getting any support from him...that I thought he was just tired of me and all this nonsense I have going on...that I was angry and it was all very unfair...that I couldn't change a dang thing, but our financial situation if he worked...so he said that he loved me, he wasn't upset with me...that he would never be tired of me, and was there for me...didn't say much about the working thing, but we'll deal with that now slowly. At least I got it all off my chest...
I can't wait for you to have this surgery and get this over with too...and no, you are SO not going to your Mom's...OMG, you would be a nutcase...leave that one so alone...that makes absolutely no sense whatsoever!
I'm in pain still...still playing phone tag with the GP's office about my referral...will be on the phone at 8:00 when they open again this morning...this is just ridiculous now...all i need is a stupid piece of paper!
I wish I were closer to you...I'd take Savannah for you for as long as it took...that would help soooooo much, I really hope your mom doesn't flake about it...but if she does, you're right in just going to pick her up.
Check in later, if you can.
Love you
k.
Well, I made it to work. That is one of the goals I set for today. I finally got to sleep around 4, woke up 3-4 times before I got "up" at 7:20. Mike told me I should call in, but why bother? I might as well come in and get as much done as possible. I DID tell him that he might need to pick me up before he goes to work, but oh well.
I'll write more later - getting busy here.
Love ya
T