Morning

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Morning
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Tue, 11-15-2005 - 8:19am

Hi all,

Just wanted to say good morning to everyone and wish you all a great day. I'm feeling less depressed today, still in some pain, but much less depressed. I'm fighting it with all I have, as usual...it won't get the best of me again, not after finally getting my BP under more control...this will NOT happen! I had to dig really deep inside to find strength...but somehow I did it...

Its not easy...this BS crap we put up with and go through on a daily basis, but who ever promised us that it would BE easy? Life is what we make it...I've got a lot of work to do yet...but I didn't let BP beat me, and I damn sure ain't gonna let this RA/Fibro crap win either. Oh heck no!

You're all such a major support for me...I don't know how I would do it without you...this is the only place in the world where I feel totally and completely understood. You're all incredibly amazing...we're all so closely bonded here...and I don't know if its through our illnesses, and struggles that we've become close, or that we were brought together for that very reason...but whatever it is, I am very thankful for all of you.

Keli

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Registered: 07-08-2003
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 11-15-2005 - 1:45pm

Keli, Donna and Marci: Thanks so much for the identification on this issue! It's so difficult to explain to "normal" people why being manic is such a hoot. It's also so reassuring that you all understand exactly what I mean. Yes, I'm very proud not to be causing harm on a regular basis anymore and that I can look at myself in the mirror and know that I've lived the best, most honest day I could - didn't leave anything undone, didn't hurt anyone, didn't lie, cheat or steal, etc. I guess sometimes I just fantasize that life was more exciting back then.

Donna, thanks for jumping in to say that nothing about my life is boring. You got that straight! My life is a constant whirlwind of activity - it's just not necessarily activity I chose to be involved with.

For example, Saturday evening I'm hostessing my annual soiree to raise money for my son's disease. There'll be alcohol galore all over the place and I'm never even tempted cause I know the kind of behavior I'll be reduced to - flirting with everyone else's husbands (but of course), dancing (when there's neither music nor a dance floor), and during my speech about the disease and the progress we're making in the fight against, probably using the microphone to say some very untoward things. UGH! I see myself coming these days.

Thanks so much for your support. Love, Mo.

mo 7-18-10

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Registered: 11-01-2005
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 11-15-2005 - 3:58pm
Keli, I am glad the depression is lifting! I hope you have a great day! I have been up for 24 hours and am going to try and get some rest. Although my puppy wants to play :)talk soon, patti

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