Mo?

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Mo?
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Thu, 11-17-2005 - 8:50am

Just wondering how you were doing, honey!

Check in if you can.

Love and Hugs,

Keli

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Thu, 11-17-2005 - 9:11am

Thanks for checking in with me, Keli. Crappy, in a word. That's how I'm doing. I wrote a ridiculously long post in response to yours today pretty much laying it all out there. I am completely overwhelmed with my life and just don't know how much more I can take. DS8, the child who is completely handicapped, is sick. When he gets sick its not like when other kids get sick. We've wound up in ICU at night when he started off the day with just sniffles. His respiratory system is extremely compromised as a result of his disease. I was upp with him about 5 times last night and I'm exhausted today.

My nanny is recovering from brain surgery and last night she was driving and developed a sudden severe headache, started to black out, so she attempted to pull her car off the road when she lost consciousness. We don't know why this happened, but I'm guessing it aint a normal part of recovering from neurosurgery. I'm really worried about her, don't get me wrong, but now I'm also without a babysitter for awhile.

Yes, Keli, I'm so, so, so freakin' tired. I'm so tired of having to fight so hard to get the littlest things done - I love to work. It saves my sanity. But I feel like one of my kids is always sick or always has something going on at school, or something that prevents me from running my law practice the way I really want to run it. Its the only thing I'm really looking for out of my life anymore, it's the only thing that gives me any real satisfaction, and I dont even get to do that the way I want.

My kids, I love them dearly, but they're draining the heck out of me. This is largely because of my DS's handicap, granted. I'm just so tired. I hardly ever get a good night's sleep. I was up 5 times last night repositioning the little guy and getting him juice because he breathes thru his mouth and it tends to get very dry.

I can't get the darned contractors to finish my house and I need to convert my construction loan to a mortgage before December 1 or I lose the lock-in interest rate. I'm so tired of fighting with them, threatening them, etc.

I'm so tired I could throw myself on the ground and cry. Funny thing, tho, Keli, I can't even cry anymore. I just go thru the motions of everything. Very little feeling, very little emotion. I just plod forward. I hate living this way.

Thanks for checking in on me, Keli. Very long story short, I'm not doing well at all. Love, Mo.

mo 7-18-10

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In reply to: keli003
Thu, 11-17-2005 - 9:32am

Mo


where do you live?

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In reply to: keli003
Thu, 11-17-2005 - 12:09pm
Hey Donna: I live in northern New Jersey. Why do you ask? Love, Mo.

mo 7-18-10

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In reply to: keli003
Thu, 11-17-2005 - 1:32pm

I was seeing if you were close to me.


isn't there some kind of medical help you can get for him?

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Thu, 11-17-2005 - 3:16pm

Thanks so much, Donna. Well, our family income makes me ineligible for any assistance whatsoever from any state agency. My insurance company will cover 40 days of in-home nursing care, but they have to be prescribed by a physician and I have to give the nursing agency notice that I will need their services. Neither contingency could be met today.

I do have a nanny; however, I think I may have rambled away about this: she is recovering from brain surgery and last night she blacked out while driving and I hope and pray that her mom took her to the hospital. I called her earlier today but so far no response.

It's extremely difficult to get anyone to help with DS8. He's a living doll, he really is, but as I've shared before - he weighs about 80 lbs. and he's still in diapers. Personality wise, he's a real hoot to hang out with. What I really need is a young guy whose kind of like a big brother to him, but I really hesitate to have a young guy living in my house because of my DD11. You just can't be too careful, you know????

Thanks so much for your thoughts, Donna. I'll check in again later. Love, Mo.

mo 7-18-10

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In reply to: keli003
Thu, 11-17-2005 - 3:50pm

so...do they have one of those big brother, big sister programs by you?

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