Driving myself Crazy!!! (Long)

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Registered: 10-18-2004
Driving myself Crazy!!! (Long)
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Fri, 11-18-2005 - 12:02pm

I am driving myself absolutely nuts!!! I am having racing thoughts that won't quit and am being obessive. It started yesterday when I went to Tampa (it's a town about 45 min. from where I live in Zephyrhills, FL). I left the house and kept thinking over and over again that I left the oven on and that it would set the house on fire and kill my dog. So, after 20 minutes of driving I couldn't stand it anymore I turned around and came home. When I got home the oven was off. So, I left again and the minute I got in the car I kept thinking that I left the hair dryer plugged into the wall (I leave it unplugged because I have this irrational fear that a spark will set the house on fire). I kept telling myself to knock it off and everything would be fine. I finally made it to Tampa and worked out for 45 minutes. I'm starting to wonder if I am OCD on top of everything because I have all these little rituals I have to do. I always check for spiders before getting in the shower. I can't leave the hair dryer plugged into the wall after I'm done using it or the heating pad because I worry it will set the house on fire. I can't leave a load of laundry washing or drying if I'm not home because I'm worried there will be some sort of accident.

Then last night I kept thinking about what would happen if my parents got killed or if someone broke into the house and hurt me. I also keep thinking what if my dog gets out and gets attacked by the pitbulls next door. There are two of them and they are constantly getting out and wandering the neighborhood. I know in my heart that I am being paranoid, but I have been worrying about this kind of stuff for days now and it is scaring me. I keep hearing the phone ring and when I pick it up it is nothing but a dial tone. Or when I finally do try and go to sleep I keep hearing very loud beeping noises. Last night when I got up to go to the bathroom, I thought I heard someone behind me.

Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with this stuff? I'm scared and am so tired. I didn't sleep last night and I can't seem to get any peace because my mind is racing. Thanks for listening - Take Care, Jena

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Fri, 11-18-2005 - 12:08pm
it could be ocd or a ton of anxiety...does your pdoc/tdoc know about these thoughts you are having?
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