A higher level of acceptance

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Registered: 04-01-2010
A higher level of acceptance
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Tue, 12-28-2010 - 5:23pm

It was 11 weeks ago yesterday that I sent xAP an email telling him that I had come to my senses, that it was an ego stroking game and I was embarassed and ashamed of my behavior. I told him I would not contact him again. (Of course I blew that a couple weeks ago, but thankfully he did not respond. Maybe I can just pretend he never received it!!)

Anyway, my guests have left and the madness of Christmas week is over and things are settling back to "normal." What a difference a year makes. I was completely present in every crazy moment this year and it

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.

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Registered: 10-17-2010
Tue, 12-28-2010 - 7:57pm

So awesome to see how far we have come isnt it?

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-30-2010
Tue, 12-28-2010 - 8:30pm

Always...your posts are sounding just so positive - I love it!

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Registered: 07-17-2004
Tue, 12-28-2010 - 9:26pm

Alwayst2,

Your post was very inspiring and really reached to the core of me that I too look forward to a better acceptance of who I am.

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Registered: 04-01-2010
Tue, 12-28-2010 - 9:49pm

Jen, you are doing such an amazing job, too. Just think where we were a few months ago. I can't believe how much better things are now, now that the albatross is no longer hanging around

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 04-01-2010
Tue, 12-28-2010 - 9:51pm
Renewal, I am so proud of how far you have come, too. It's so good to know we aren't alone on this journey. I'm hoping we all can make that retreat! I want to finally meet you in person!!
Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 04-01-2010
Tue, 12-28-2010 - 9:52pm
Keep reading and posting, Cait. You are the one now inspiring the newest of newbies. You have so much to offer. You've remained incredibly strong throughout your very, very difficult journey. I'm so proud of you, sweetie.
Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 10-16-2010
Wed, 12-29-2010 - 1:43am

Always2 you sound positively marvelous!

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Registered: 11-22-2009
Wed, 12-29-2010 - 9:38am

((Alwayst))

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Can we scale back on that 100 times comment? :smileywink: Don't be setting yourself up for failure, my friend, but I am guessing you were just embellishing for some laughs, yes?

Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 12-13-2010
Wed, 12-29-2010 - 10:09am

Thank you, as a newbie, for your post alwayst2.

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Registered: 07-17-2004
Wed, 12-29-2010 - 10:23am
Alwayst2,

It is good to look back where we were just a short time ago, sometimes it feels like it was so long ago being stuck in a destructive stage and it's good to keep evaluating our growth to be able to keep moving forward. I especially liked how you said finding the courage to change and to do it with honesty. I am a little bit wobbly at times in feeling comfortable with the newer me that is emerging, I will take that wobbly over staying stuck though! 2 months smoke free today, it has been a journey of discovering new coping skills that also tie into my ending journey. I think it is so important to have a support system like we have here on EAS every bit of encouragement goes a long way:)

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