Keli
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| Mon, 11-21-2005 - 1:42pm |
Hey girl! Hope you are feeling a little better then this morning. I tried calling last night, wish I had gotten a hold of you - although if your mom was calling that much I can understand why you didn't answer LOL!
I'm doing ok - still in a lot of pain and unable to enunciate, but see the dr tomorrow. The swelling isn't going down very quickly, which sucks, but at least I can tell the wound itself IS healing. And, can I say, I am SO sick of soup!!!
Savannah came home yesterday, which was interesting. She is happy to be home, and it IS nice to have her back but she is a little bit of a pain...she IS almost 10 after all LOL. She is trying very hard to be helpful, so that's cute. Worst of all is that I was sitting and talking to her (which is hard for her - she can't see anything except my wound) and realized how grown up looking her face is getting. She doesn't have that little girl face anymore - she has a teenager face. Almost started crying.
Other then that, not much here. Waiting to see dr. Only things I am stressing about is money (a LOT - rent will be due before I know it and somehow I have to be able to pay it) and my "friend" Tanya. I don't know what on earth happened there, but she hasn't talked to me since I told her I was going to be having surgery after I saw the ENT. I was surprised she didn't call me before I went in, and actually tried to call her but didnt get any answer. No word from her while I was in the hospital or since I came home. I finally tried to call Saturday and left a message that I was home and made it through. Also let her know that when she moves this week I don't know her new phone number so maybe call me one of these days. Then, last night around 8:30 I tried again. Now, she has 3 kids in school and a toddler, plus she starts moving this week into her new house - chances are she would be home. No answer. I left a message that I wasn't quite sure what was going on, but was surprised I hadn't heard from her. Told her that I guessed I would just tell her good luck on her move and leave it at that. I don't have a clue what has caused this to happen, but it sucks losing my best friend of 18 years. Mike is furious, because she has been really jealous of our time together, and this is just wrong. I would like it if she called just so I could find out what the heck was up. Otherwise, I am not calling her again.
ANYWAY, enough about me. It is awesome that Eric set up your tree for you. Maybe that is a little bit of a brightener that can help you :) You hang in there and keep after the drs. Don't quit fighting - even when it feels like there isnt anything worth fighting for...because as long as it involves you it IS worth the fight.
Take care and I'll talk to you again soon!
Love
Tracey

I just want to scream, but since I can't, I will talk to you! I was so glad to see your post...I did turn the ringer off on my phone last night, lol...sorry you couldn't get through...as for Tanya, I am sooooooo sorry...I kinda was wondering what was up with her, as I hadn't heard you mention her in quite some time...I think she got jealous from the beginning of you and Mike...but to just not call you like that, well, that's just not right...but you're handling it the right way...I know it hurts, but if she's going to act like that, you are really better off knowing it NOW. She was pretty miserable and maybe she couldn't handle you and Mike working out so well and being so truly happy together...
My pain is coming and going...which I guess is better...I'm just down and irritable today...many reasons, but mostly cuz I had PMS...had being the key word...I started earlier this morning...lol. I'm soooo stressing about money too...Eric is working tonight, so that helps...he worked yesterday too, but couldn't finish because a storm came up and he had to stop. So, he didn't get paid and won't til tonight...my phone is disconnected at home, so if you call me, you'll have to call my cell...hate it, but it was the only bill I could put off at the time...my son will be calling me complaining about it in a few minutes, as he will be home in about 10 minutes from school. Hate that too...
I've not done anything much at work today, but at least I've stayed all day. This stupid down mood I'm in has GOT to go...I'm sick of myself at this point.
The H word called me earlier...lol. We chit chatted and I told him I wasn't doing well...was glad he was doing well, blah blah blah...he said he was just "calling to check on me". Who knows.
The weather has been absolutely HORRIBLE today too...finally the rain stopped, but its so cold now...I really hate winter.
I need to cheer up, and fast...its getting ridiculous...
I'm glad you posted to let me know how you were...I miss you!!! I hope the swelling starts going down very soon...at least the wound itself is healing...
Talk to you soon...
Love you lots,
Keli