keli......

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Registered: 11-19-2004
keli......
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Mon, 11-21-2005 - 7:17pm

hi babes...


just to hide this post a little in case someone's lurking that shouldn't be...


my pdoc is leaving,but going somewhere local.

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 11-22-2005 - 8:01am

Hey sweetheart...

My pdoc told me that my reaction to a/d's is what CLINCHED my BP dx...that if I didn't have that reaction to them, it might simply be clinical depression and PTSD. And as much as I wished that were true, even went off meds to check, it wasn't...we both know that...

You need to stay with your current pdoc...he's stabilized you as much as possible for now...that says a lot...you would be starting all over again with a new one...I know you hate to hear this, but your tdoc is causing all sorts of commotion that is just not necessary! You know you're BP...I know you're BP...pdoc knows it...

As for the meds...yes, they ALL have side affects...we deal with them, in order to funtion in daily life like everyone else does...or close to it anyway...I'm so glad you're off Depakote and coming off Abilify...I've always thought you were waaaaaaaay too medicated. I think you'll feel better once you come off some of those meds! I know I did...at one point, I was on 7 meds...then i eventually went off every single one of them, and started over...simply because i was SO medicated, they didn't know what was working and what wasn't...

Now, I'm only taking Lamictal 200 mgs, Prozac 20 mgs (for now), and Ativan as needed, and to be honest, I don't need it much anymore...I have a lot left and am supposed to refill next week...I only take Topamax when I start cycling...and I haven't really cycled in quite some time...not like I normally do...I got down and depressed, but that was mostly due to PMS and RA/Fibro...it wasn't BP depression. I only got to this point because I hung in there with the STUPID meds, the STUPID side affects, the weight gain, the hell of rapid cycling...its not easy, omg, its not easy...we know that...but if you start over again because your tdoc wants you too, you're starting over from point zero...

I'm glad you posted...I was really starting to worry about you...I'm off tomorrow through the weekend, but I'll check my yahoo, so send me something there if you need me...

I'm a bit hyped out myself this morning...but I think its just cuz I feel better than I did yesterday...

I love you honey...

Keli