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Having a bad couple of days
| Fri, 11-25-2005 - 10:58pm |
I know I always get this way around the holidays.
| Fri, 11-25-2005 - 10:58pm |
I know I always get this way around the holidays.
heather, i understand how you feel. i've been fighting similar feelings for the past 3 days and some darker feelings mixed in. i understand about the custody thing. my xh blackmailed me into joint custody by stealing a journal and then never sees the kids anyway.......it was just so he could keep the child support down. but, i guess the difference is that my kids now see the dirtbag he is for themselves and don't really want to be a part of his life. chances are in time, your dd will come to the same conclusion. if this is your oldest, she's only 7? my 9 year old still thinks his dad is a great guy and i let him think that. he will form his own decision as he grows older.
for the time being, just let dd know that you love her very much and only want to be part of her life and want to take care of her as a mother does.
as for the pdoc, hang in there. post here as often as you need to until you hear back from him.
hugs,
traci
Hi Heather, and welcome...I'm Keli...I'm 35 and have an almost 15 year old son who is about to make me absolutely more nuts than I already am...I've been away from the boards since Wednesday morning, and didn't get to say hi when you first posted, so I wanted to now. I totally can relate to what you're feeling. I have thought SOOO many times that everyone would be so much better off if I weren't around...but its the BP talking. You have to fight those thoughts and KNOW they aren't real.
My family is nutso too...they've never done anything horrible to ME, but to say dysfunctional is almost putting it mildly. I've been told by therapists that they are making me sicker, but I can't NOT be around them. My brother is a real loser, but I love him so much, and its just he and I. My mother is totally disabled and lives about an hour and a half away from me. I go about every other weekend and take care of her so my dad can have a break. They drive me nuts, yes.
Anyway, enough about me. Just hang in there...I hope the new pdoc calls soon, and keep posting here...I've been here about 4 years now and the board has been a true life saver for me.
Love and Hugs,
Keli