Tracey

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tracey
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Wed, 11-30-2005 - 9:56am

Hey girlfriend...how are you feeling today? Get any sleep last night?

I'm okay...still a bit agitated and manicky, but I took Topamax last night, and some Lamictal I found (duh me) and feel a bit better...just glad I got paid...now I have to be REALLY careful with my money this month, since its Christmas...but if I am, I will be able to catch up all my bills, and buy my kids cell phone, do groceries for the month, and get my meds...soooooo, wish me luck. I've already gotten it planned out, and that's a good start...for the last couple months, I've just spent and spent and not watched anything...that's what got me in this predicament.

Anyway, just wanted to check on you. I'm here til about noonish my time...then I'm off for the day...I can't ever stay at work anymore. Luckily neither can anyone else at my job...its the season.

Oooooooh, I'm having steamed snow crab legs for dinner tonight....mmmmmm...and salad.

No more H word calls and don't plan on answering if there are.

Talk soon...

Love you

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Registered: 07-24-2003
In reply to: keli003
Wed, 11-30-2005 - 11:36am

Hey back at ya!

I'm doing ok. Got about 9 hours of broken sleep last night. Popped an ambien around 8:30 and don't remember seeing 9:00. Woke up when Mike came to bed for 45 min or so, then woke up WIDE AWAKE at 2:30 for an 1-1 1/2 hours, but then I slept like the dead until 7:30. Still yawning though. I could use another 4-5 hours LOL!

Feeling a little better every day. The feeling that I have something in my throat is making me crazy, but I am doing everything the dr says and hopefully it will heal soon! I go for another post-op appt tomorrow so we'll see what he says. The incision is actually looking pretty good - healing up. Still very numb under my chin - REALLY hope that goes away.

Otherwise, just stressed about money. Am about $200 short for rent, got a disconnect notice on electric ($200), and Mike is still not working. I basically told him today that he needs to come up with some ideas because if I have to stress about it I will make myself, and him, crazy and I can't do that. So we'll see what he says tonight. I am thinking I can call the electric company tonight and make an arrangement (hopefully) to pay them next week, which would be good. Beyond that, no idea. I am PRAYING that work took pity on me and paid me for Thanksgiving, but I doubt that they did. I won't find out until Friday. If they did, I am ok on rent. Otherwise, I am screwed.

I know how you feel about Xmas presents and stuff. I am planning on doing all my birthday and Xmas shopping out of my next child support payment (in 2 weeks) which is cutting it close. It gives me $300 to buy 4 bday presents, and all the gifts for Savannah for Xmas, something for my parents, Mike, both brothers and my sister (loser brother's bday, other brother and sister are godparents to Savannah), and then something small for all the kids (figuring $35 total @ $5 per kid). Going to be tight, but I think I can swing it. Still have to pay for her bday party stuff too, but that is going to be a cheap night.

I would very much like to go home early again today, am just blah, but can't. Will be SO nice when I have been here long enough to have leave time. That's one of the biggest downfalls to starting a new job. Fortunately, insurance kicks in tomorrow!!!!! YAY!

Went over some wedding plans with Mom last night. I think it was freaking her out - she didn't think this was going to be real. We are thinking of having the wedding itself at her house - she has a beautiful big yard. It would be just my immediate family (and my grandparents) and then Mike's parents and sister's family. The ceremony will be late afternoon, and then we're going to have a nice supper together at Mom's. Then we'll all head off to the reception at a hall (which has a bar in it - I'm not paying for ANYONE'S booze or the insurance rider or any of that crud) from like 6-11 or 7-12 or something like that. We'll get a DJ for 4 or 5 hours, and have snacky foods, and of course the wedding cake. That's it...nothing else. I'm going REALLY low-budget on this deal LOL! I HAVE given in to my sister that I will wear a wedding dress, instead of just a nice outfit. She threatened to show up with a really big fancy one if I didn't get one. BUT it is going to be very simple. I also buckled to her on having a photographer, I think. I keep wavering on that one. Mom kept bringing up that it would really be nice if the wedding was in the church, but she's going to have to get over that one. LOL! When I explained that Mike hadn't been confirmed in the Catholic church, so we couldn't get married at the church, she decided that we will delay the wedding so he can get confirmed. I told her no :) We have decided to have an outdoor wedding and that is what it will be. I am going to talk to the priest at my church to find out about blessing the marriage or other options just to placate everyone.

Anyway :) Have a great half day off - I'll talk to you more later. BTW: It's great about the H word

Love ya!
T

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: keli003
Wed, 11-30-2005 - 11:52am

I'm really glad you got some sleep, though it was broken sleep!

That sounds really cool about the wedding...of course, you KNOW i am coming...even if only for the party...I already told Eric about it...please please please please wear a wedding dress!!!!! AND get a photographer!!! this is too special not to!! I think an outside wdding is perfect.

I just paid ALL my bills, and OMG! I had to catch up cable for 2 months, phone for 2 months, back rent of $150...ANNNNNND Christmas...BUT, I did a budget for the rest of the month and I have to be REALLY REALLY careful...but I think I can swing it...I just left Eric a really long voice mail telling him that very thing...no splurging on anything...but I don't even care about that, as long as we aren't broke! The last few months have really sucked...and its my own fault cuz I went a bit crazy and didn't even TRY to manage my money.

I think I'm getting some Christmas money from my mom and dad too...I'm not counting on it, but if it happens, it will be nice...this is extra money, and not my present...LOL.

I really should stay at work, but I'm not going to...

I feel much better today...a bit on the high side, but not bad...not manic bad, but a little manic good...lol.

My phone rang earlier and I missed the call...whoever it was didn't leave a message...coulda been H...dunno. Don't care. Thought about that a lot last night and coulda kicked myself in my own butt for even talking to him again...oh well.

Love you...

k.