Bad Night...
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| Fri, 12-02-2005 - 7:49am |
I went home in so much pain yesterday afternoon...it hit me all of sudden, in all my joints again...I took my son to bball practice, but my dh picked him up, as I just couldn't bear to drive...he's really good to me...he told me he was so sorry I had to go through so much pain, and that he'd always be here to love me and to care for me. It helped me to hear that...I took my meds around 8 and went to sleep around 9...but I couldn't sleep very well, I was up and down all night...now this morning, I'm still hurting, but not at all tired, as I really should be for the amount of sleep I got...
I really don't want to get manic...not really manic anyway...a little bit is okay, as I know how to deal with it...but I'm doing things I know that I do when I'm getting/am manic...at least one thing anyway...thankfully, its only one...but it has the potential of being a biggie, so I have to be really careful.
I'm really stable with the Lamictal, at least with the depression cycles...the manics I've been having a bit more...but then I get all confused and wonder if this is just real life and not mania??? But I know better.
Its not fair that we can't just BE NORMAL! Everything is a "mood".
Anyway, I don't see my Rheumatologist until January 13...seems so far away...I could barely walk last night...Its a scary thing to know you have a progressive illness that only gets worse...I finally told my dh how scary it was to me.
I'm glad its Friday.

like tylenol with codeine?
just so you can sleep thru the night?
sleep is very important for bipolar as i'm sure you know.
can you ask about that?
I've already asked! My GP won't give me anything other than the Lodine he RXed already...its an anti-inflammatory that is supposed to help with the pain, but so doesn't. So, I take Aleve, Tylenol...whatever.
Its so frustrating. But I manage somehow to deal with it, and I will continue to fight this stupid crap...I know I'm very strong, and I can do it...I can't let pain cause me to break down...
How are you?
I'm so sorry you are in pain like this....I can't say I know exactly how it is...I just know the pain I'm in from the meds...but its slowly going away (I can't wait).
not sure what the things are that you are doing, but stop them !!!
dh sounds like he's come around....that is a good thing right now !!
God could not be everywhere, so