Day 2 of anti-psychotic....
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| Fri, 12-02-2005 - 11:10am |
Due to his fast heart rate the psychiatrist put H on a different med. H told me about it & didn't tell me the name of it.
He called at 7AM to tell me he called HR & finally realizes they are not throwing up road blocks and are willing to work with him.
Two days of anti-psychotic and he can see hope, not all is lost. I can hear his true self in his voice, what a very nice sound.
This past weekend I had serious doubts he'd live much longer, today I'd say suicide is shrinking back to the stillness of his mind, quieted until the next episode tries to arise.
I checked his cell phone log this morning, he has not talked to the OW for 2 days. They normally talk 7-10 times a day. He has not mentioned her to me since Monday. He seems to be gaining some sense of control of his words.
I think the chaos is ending and now we can take this time to heal.
CHECK OUT MY HORISCOPE FOR TODAY!
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Today is the last day of the Mercury retrograde period, which strongly affects you because it's your ruling planet. You continue to encounter resistance to your plans, but can see the light at the end of the tunnel now. There is no room for impulsive behavior. Keep focused on your long-term goals and be patient, for you are closing in on your target.
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Could there be a better description of my morning???
Bonnie

you must be a gemini !!!!
I'm very happy to hear things are progressing in the right direction !!!
God could not be everywhere, so
Well, now that is weird, how could you tell I was a gemini?
My optimism is outstanding today. True, I'd rather we could start rebuilding together immediately, but I also realize time is needed. I know there is still a chance he will not want to come back, but yesterday he was giving indication he is thinking about it. (Such as asking where we'd set up his computer since I took over his office while he was gone & set up the baby's room in my old office.)
Since we are on the subject of horoscopes.... Gemini & Leo's are good for each other. The Leo keeps the Gemini from getting bored. Well, ain't the the truth! I don't think he's ever let things get boring - not always exciting in a good way, but definately not boring. Honestly, even if it's against my nature, I would love a little quiet time.
:-)
Bonnie
"Only when we are sick of our sickness shall we cease to be sick."
~ Lao-Tzu, from The Tao Te Cheng
I got the same horoscope today !!!
God could not be everywhere, so
Normally, I'm not one who prays, but I have through this & everytime I do I hear the words in my head - "Love conquers all" Instead of fighting with him, blaming him, I have tried to continue to receive him with open arms. My specific goal - not to make the mistakes my mother made when she was betrayed by my father. I'm not hiding, I'm not blaming myself, I'm making this into a learning experience to better myself & hopefully our relationship.
Just got off of the phone with NAMI, I'm signed up for the January Family to Family 12w course!!!
Bonnie
"Only when we are sick of our sickness shall we cease to be sick."
~ Lao-Tzu, from The Tao Te Cheng