Tracey

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tracey
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Mon, 12-05-2005 - 8:44am

Hey you...how are you doing? I'm okay...

Just wanted to check in with you and see how you were.

Love ya,

Keli

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Registered: 07-24-2003
In reply to: keli003
Mon, 12-05-2005 - 11:14am

Hey yourself :) Overall, I am doing really well. Still healing, most of the numbness is gone except under my chin along the jaw. And, of course, the right side of my tongue is still dead LOL! It IS improving though...thank GOD. I have had a miserable hateful awful headache off and on for the past 4 days or so - figure it is from the healing. Was bad enough last night that I popped a darvon around 5:30 and then another around 1 am. Hate headaches.

Mike told him Mom that we were setting the date for late April and would update her when we had the exact weekend. She was really happy for us, which is nice. For Xmas, she told him she wants a nice family photo of us...which is cool. She also remembered that Savannah's bday was coming up and wanted to know where we usually shop for things for her - sending a gift card. She is SO cool! She is really embracing us as part of the family which is going to be SO nice for Savannah - she really misses having another side to her family besides just my bunch of lunatics.

He threw me a bit of a curve ball too - we were discussing Xmas present options for his parents using the pictures and he told me to wait for anything fancy until next year in case we do have the baby by then! He is SO excited to get married and have babies...I love it :) Of course, we aren't waiting until the wedding to try and start the baby, but why get technical LOL!

I am going to bring up with him again about changing Savannah's name or having him adopt her. I HATE to lose my child support - it is REALLY helpful, but if he is working full-time it wouldn't make THAT much difference so.....see what happens. It makes me kind of sick that his mother is sending a bday present for Savannah but her REAL grandmother and aunt would never even think of it.

Anyway - hope all is well with you. I'll ttyl more :)

Love galore
Tracey

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: keli003
Mon, 12-05-2005 - 2:16pm

I'm so glad you're doing well. I am for the most part...cycling some...but nothing too major...a bit manic...or mixed, like on Friday...yesterday was kinda icky...Saturday was REALLY manic. So dunno. I need to call pdoc and up my Lamictal...I'm going off Prozac too...know its the problem, partly. Just haven't called pdoc yet...dunno why! Except I cancelled my last appointment with her last Monday cuz I was doing well, and here I am, calling her...so I guess I'll wait a bit...

I'm still in RA hell. I hate it...I can deal with a lot...I can deal with a lot of pain even...but my gosh, it gets old really really fast...I'm so tired of it. Its getting harder and harder to go up my stairs at home...I'm scared we're going to have to move sooner than this summer. But if we have to, so be it, right? I'm really stiff when I get up from sitting or laying down...I got up at work the other day and my knee went out from under me...luckily I was holding on to my desk. Its very scary, to feel like you're falling apart at 35. But I mostly don't think about it...I just think to myself that I can do this, and I can do that, and I just do it. Sometimes the pain is so bad though, I can't and I have to just lay there...that's when I get down and upset and scared and feeling sorry for myself.

Anyway, other than all that, I'm okay! LOL.

My mom and dad went on a short trip this past weekend, so I didn't get called!!! :) I didn't do much at all though...my car is overheating, and I'm not even stressing about it...if it gets fixed, fine...if not, I have Eric's. I stayed in bed all day yesterday, cuz I didn't feel good, and I'd had no sleep...I really was pretty manic on Saturday...up at 6 am cleaning...couldn't sit still, then had a major panic attack, couldn't breathe, the whole thing...took Ativan...calmed down.

Well, as you can see, I'm still a bit up...talking...but I've been QUIET all day, not talking much...so guess its not too much.

I really really really am GLAD you are doing better...you sound happier than I've ever heard you sound...you SOOOOO deserve it.

Love you,

Keli