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ya know...just when I think
| Mon, 12-05-2005 - 1:43pm |
I won't let anyone bother me...just when I think I'll just come in and do my job, and just let everyone around me do whatever they please....it just gets worse.
I am so sick of my boss acting like i'm an idiot...when in reality HE HAS NO FLIPPIN CLUE..none whatsoever.


You bother because you HAVE to...no matter what, you have your kids...and you have to do this for them...no, its NOT fair...none of this is...no, we DID NOT ask for this life...I'm about in the same boat you're in...with some differences, but it boils down to the same thing...
You have to find some joys...somewhere, somehow...to make it worth it...no, its not easy...but whoever told us life would be easy???? who is to say that if you had a different life, different dh, more money, different job, that you would be any happier? I've been there done that...I thought the grass was greener on the other side, and boy did I find out how wrong I was...yeah, for a while, it was better...then the "newness" wore off and I was miserable again.
Happiness lies within us and only within US. We have to fight to find it inside. Everything else is secondary to that.
I feel the same way and I need to take my own advice here...don't think I'm lecturing you, because I am SO not...its easier to say this than to do this...
I don't know how to start...I wish I did...but I think we all have to find our own way...a step at a time...one small step at a time. Ya know what I mean?
Its ugly weather here...depressing in and of itself...the holidays are here, and those are also depressing...are you PMSing do you think? Things are so much worse when we are.
Hang in there honey...you know I love you.
Keli
no, not pmsing...coming down off lamictal.
God could not be everywhere, so
We're all entitled to feel selfish from time to time...and you're right...I forgot all about coming down off the Lamictal...call pdoc when you can...
It sucks, plain and simple...
You totally deserve good things...remember that...and let's kick dh's behind tonight around 8:00 my time. k? Any later than that and I'll be asleep! Might not be all we need to do, but it will help us feel better...
I need to sleep too...I've not slept well in a long time...
Sounds like someone needs to take a deep breath and get some sleep :( I'm sorry for you, Donna. You remember me posting similar thoughts just recently? I didn't care whether I lived or died, and oh yea, help me remember why I'm here on earth anyway?????
You remember that show Roseanne? I wasn't a regular viewer but years ago I must've seen an episode and she said something that stuck with me (how pathetic is this? I'm quoting Roseanne Barr??? LOL) She said to her husband on the show "Why do our lives always have to be the ones that suck?"
Oh boy, I feel that way so many days. I feel like I got gypped big time when the "easy life" train came along. And I'm surrounded by women who are richer than me, have healthy kids, etc. I just try so hard not to focus on those things and focus on what I DO have - and I have to say, the blessings are there. Sometimes they're just so freakin' difficult to recognize.
Donna, I know this is personal, but do you have a higher power in your life? I don't mean a religious God up there on the clouds reigning judgment all over everyone, I mean a loving and caring power that is by your side giving you strength to get thru whatever life tosses your way. Just a wonder. Love you, Mo.
Mo,
You're so cool. Just wanted you to know that!
Love you,
Keli
ya know what is so interesting?
God could not be everywhere, so
donna,
i'm sorry you are in such a rotten place. i wish i could offer something but i'd probably say something to make it worse. just know i'm thinking about you.
traci
Ah yes, I know the book well. Written by one of my "mentors," Wayne Dyer. Wayne has some great stuff to say but yes, he can get very "out there." You might try Joel Osteen. He's a tv preacher (don't roll your eyes at me! LOL) and he has a book out right now called "your best life ever." I personally love Joel. He takes all kinds of complicated spiritual principles and makes them very simple.
This past week his sermon was on breaking negative cycles in your family. I was so heartened to hear this, because I've broken a few. I'm the first one in my family to actually get help for addiction - even tho my dad and everyone of his 10 brothers and sisters basically drank themselves to death. And my cousins, of course, inherited the disease as well. But I'm the first one to actually admit I have a problem and get involved in the 12-steps! Of course, the ironic thing is that they all think that I'm the ONLY one with this problem, LOL, but that's besides the point.
Really, try Joel. He's really inspirational and very easy to listen to. Big hugs still coming your way! Love, Mo.