Having a hard time-triggers
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| Wed, 12-07-2005 - 10:53am |
First of all, thank you all for your support yesterday. I really appreciate it.
I know this probably isn't the right board to discuss this on but, I couldn't find a support board for this subject and I am having a really hard time right now. I have been thinking alot about my ex-husband lately and last night I thought about something that happened when we were married....My ex invited some friends over to play cards and drink. I decided to join and I drank way too much. I passed out and awoke to his friend having sex with me and then my ex had sex with me. I tried to get them off of me but, I was too drunk or they were too strong. I remember my ex telling me to sssh and that it was okay. He kept telling me to close my eyes and that he loved me (puke, puke). When I woke up the next day I was naked in my bed. I confronted my husband and he told me it never happened and that I drank too much. Well, I know it happened. I just remember little bits and pieces. I keep having flashbacks of what happened. I'm so embarassed. I feel guilty because I drank too much. I never wanted that to happen. I'll never forget what happened. I trusted my ex-husband. Never in a million years did I think he would do something like that, but he did. I guess you can live with people for so many years and not really know them, ya know? Thanks for listening - Jena

Yeah, I'm not sure if there's a board on here for that or not.
God could not be everywhere, so
Jena,
You were abused. Horribly. You may be experiencing symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and there IS a board for that. You REALLY need a tdoc too. The cl over at the PTSD board is really wonderful and she can help you understand some of what is going on with you.
Its located under the Health and Well Being section, under Psychology.
PTSD is a scary thing...the flashbacks, the guilt...but listen to me, please...YOU DID NOTHING WRONG! You were sexually abused by someone you cared about. You could NOT stop it, and you couldn't have done differently.
Please seek help. We're here for you.
Love and Hugs,
Keli
Keli
didn't even think of that....great idea !!!
God could not be everywhere, so