talked to tdoc.......

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Registered: 11-18-2003
talked to tdoc.......
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Wed, 12-07-2005 - 9:05pm

i've had both check-ins with tdoc. she suggested one alternative that i hadn't considered. i've been seeing an acupuncturist to aid in my quitting smoking. with all that's been going on, that hasn't been going well but she suggested going to see him and tell him i need a depression treatment. she said that she refers a lot of her clients that are med resistant for this and most of them have had good results.


i called my acupuncturist after my first discussion with tdoc. he is seeing me in the morning after i finish my bus run. at this point all i can say is i hope it works. if even just a little relief. enough to get me through the next few days, unti tdoc gets back and we can figure things out. like what to do with my kids if/when i go i/p and what/how i will tell them. my kids are my main stumbling block right now. if it weren't for them, i'd have gone in by now. it's not having anyone supportive enough to help them while i'm hospitalized. it all just spirals into a big mess. but my kids are my main reason for fighting it for so long.


i know that it's for them that i need to do this, but it's also for them that i can't. it's one of those danged if i do danged if i don't things. my kids are also keeping me from doing anything as far as my plan goes. yeah, i am miserable and have things all worked out in my head, but there's still that small part of me that won't allow me to do that to my kids. and i think that's why tdoc/pdoc haven't baker acted me to this point. i just have to keep my stuff together a little longer and hope that the med adjustments kick in (not holding breath) and maybe the acupuncturist will help.


i keep going back and forth. and i guess this is one of my more lucid moments. i don't know.....i go from depressed to despair. i'm sick of this. i know that much.


thanks for listening.


traci

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Thu, 12-08-2005 - 8:55am

well...you do somehow sound a little better...I realize your moods are all over the place tho.


I'm sure the accupuncture will help...I remember you saying how much it worked the first time you went.

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Thu, 12-08-2005 - 12:32pm

tdoc actually thought the acupuncturist was aware of and treating me for this. the way the conversation came about was her asking me if the acupuncture wasn't helping. i asked her why it would as i was only being treated for quitting smoking. thats when she went into telling me to call him and that she's referred a good many people for this very thing.


anyway, i don't know if it helped or not. i don't feel any better than i did. but at the same time, maybe i am 'cause i'm not as ready to cash it in as i was yesterday. the urge to si is still very strong though. so whether it's the adjustment in seroquel or the treatment this morning i don't know. the seroquel is for the thoughts so ???


so i have to call her in a couple of hours and i'm hoping she takes this as a positive. i'm hoping that i continue to not have those thoughts too. anyway, i just wanted to update you.


love u 2,


traci

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Thu, 12-08-2005 - 3:01pm
thanks for the update...when do you see the acupuncturist again?
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Thu, 12-08-2005 - 6:06pm

i'm scheduled to go back on tuesday. he mixed me an herbal tea to help too, but all it did was upset my stomach so he told me not to drink anymore.


thing is i don't know if it's the tea that did it or not. i haven't had an appetite since this all started up and the tea was supposed to increase my appetite. i have had this problem before. to force myself to eat is stupid 'cause it doesn't stay down. tdoc isn't going to be happy to hear that's going on again. she knows my appetite has disappeared, it's just gotten worse this week and i suppose i should tell her about that.


traci