Called GPs office

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Called GPs office
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Fri, 12-09-2005 - 9:32am

Told the nurse I needed something for pain...that my pain level was off the charts...that I couldn't take it anymore...my doctor is off today, of course. But she said she'd ask the on-call doctor for something to "get me through the weekend" and then we'll go from there on Monday.

I can't afford the freaking MEDS! I'm so broke already and its my own fault AGAIN! I am so bad at managing my money...I'm going to give it all up to my dh to do it for me from now on. I'm terrible at everything. He already does everything...I can barely take care of my damn self, and that gets harder every day...I try to take hot baths, but its harder for me to get out of the bath tub now. :( :( :( I am NOT going to be dependent at 35 years old!

Its Christmas and I hate it. I hate everything.

I just want to go hide on my mom's couch, take meds to knock me out, and not talk to anyone. I think I'm going to tell them to come get me around 1 and go home.

Dammit, I can't stand this. You guys, I just can't!

Maybe I'll get some Vicodin...maybe I should self medicate...I would if I had the money.

I'm so sorry to be so negative, but I have to talk to get through this...

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Registered: 04-06-2005
In reply to: keli003
Fri, 12-09-2005 - 9:42am

I'm glad you called...I hope they do something soon.

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In reply to: keli003
Fri, 12-09-2005 - 10:18am

thanks donna,

i'm just plain tired and sick of it all...but its just one more thing to get through, ya know?

sometimes its VERY hard for me to be strong...but i've been through hell with the BP stuff, and made it, and i can make it through this too...just have to keep thinking positively (ha...).

thanks for being there...you all don't know how much it means to have your support and caring...i couldn't do this without you.

love u

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Registered: 04-06-2005
In reply to: keli003
Fri, 12-09-2005 - 10:54am

I'm sure it's not easy staying positive....we do what we can, ya know?


I do hope you get some good rest/relief at your parents house.....

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: keli003
Fri, 12-09-2005 - 10:59am

yeah, right...rest and relaxation at my parents??????? LMAO

hilarious...

sorry, i'm still a freaking mess

my stupid sinuses will not let up and it hurts...someone somewhere thinks its funny to see just how much i can take...

i wanna go home, and the GP's office hasn't called back yet...they go to lunch in an hour too...

i am going to lose it over here...maybe i'll go outside and smoke in the cold...

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Registered: 11-18-2003
In reply to: keli003
Fri, 12-09-2005 - 11:22am

keli -

i know you are in a bad place and in a lot of pain. i wish i could take it away from you. without the physical pain, i can relate to where you are at. i am sick of being tired all the time too and the med adjustments made that worse.. i so want something to pick me up out of this stupid depression. so when you find your vicadin see if you can score me something too. ha.

seriously though, i do hope you have a good weekend and that you get some relief from the pain.

love u much,
traci