i'm here today. had the day off as a result of snow/ice storm. i have not even bothered to eat. i tried again last night and it didn't stay down. i so hate this. and i'm sick of it.
i hope you are having a good day and staying warm.
i've tried the dry toast. it doesn't stay down. i know i have to tell tdoc but i'm scared to. she's due back in town on sunday so i'm hoping that i can stay it off until i can get in there and talk to her face to face.
i might go and get a movie. i don't know. depends on what the kids decide to do. my ds is already at a friend's house. dd12 is going to play with her friends up the street and dd16 has to work in a little while. so i may just go back to bed.
stupid med adjustments are making me more tired than i was which means i'm gonna have to call pdoc and figure something else out. he's probably gonna go with the lithium. he did mention some other med that i've never heard of and can't remember the name of, but he's not sure what that will do to my stability. with where i'm at, he's worried about my stability?????? i'm about as far from stable as they get. i don't see how it can be worse.....unless this new med triggers mania. and if it does, i'd take it in a heartbeat.
yeah, i've tried lamictal. i got the rash so i can't take that. also can't take abilify, geodon, gabitril, zoloft, or lexapro. that's why he finally put me on depakote, which for a little while worked in combination with all the other crap i'm on - trileptal, trazodone, seroquel and wellbutrin.
i just wish he'd take me off everything and start from scratch. i knew the increase in the seroquel and trileptal would make me more tired. that's the whole reason we reduced it to begin with....it was making me sleep all the time. but then the depression reared up and the thoughts came back. so he upped them again. i don't know, i'm just so sick of taking a cabinet full of meds for no reason.
i don't know if i'll hear back from pdoc today or not. he's off on fridays and his new assistant is not too eager to bother him on his day off. but when i have to check in with tdoc i'll ask her if she'd contact him for me. i don't know though, maybe a lot of sleep is the best thing for me right now. at least i'm safe then.
when he started the lamictal i had had so many bad reactions to all of the other meds he started me out at the lowest possible dose. my dd16 is on it and is responding well to it. i just didn't have the same results.
if pdoc calls me back today i'm going to tell him that's what i want to do. just come off everything and start over. i don't want to go i/p to do it though especially with the eating thing back. i tried toast again with no luck. i don't want to tell tdoc until she's back in town, and not even sure i want to tell her then.
i know where this is all heading and i can't stop it. it's like i said the other night, i know it's for my kids that i need to do this but at the same time it's for them that i can't.
thanks for listening. that alone helps and knowing you are there helps too.
Sorry I haven't been able to email you cause of my darn system problems (outgoing email still VERY iffy) and I lost your number when my Outlook went down.
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donna -
i'm here today. had the day off as a result of snow/ice storm. i have not even bothered to eat. i tried again last night and it didn't stay down. i so hate this. and i'm sick of it.
i hope you are having a good day and staying warm.
love u my friend,
traci
just saying hi...hope you're doing a bit better...
love and hugs,
k.
I'm sorry you are having trouble eating....have you tried just toast?
God could not be everywhere, so
i've tried the dry toast. it doesn't stay down. i know i have to tell tdoc but i'm scared to. she's due back in town on sunday so i'm hoping that i can stay it off until i can get in there and talk to her face to face.
i might go and get a movie. i don't know. depends on what the kids decide to do. my ds is already at a friend's house. dd12 is going to play with her friends up the street and dd16 has to work in a little while. so i may just go back to bed.
stupid med adjustments are making me more tired than i was which means i'm gonna have to call pdoc and figure something else out. he's probably gonna go with the lithium. he did mention some other med that i've never heard of and can't remember the name of, but he's not sure what that will do to my stability. with where i'm at, he's worried about my stability?????? i'm about as far from stable as they get. i don't see how it can be worse.....unless this new med triggers mania. and if it does, i'd take it in a heartbeat.
anyway, getting ready to call pdoc now.
love u,
traci
sorry they are making you tired...i hate that.
God could not be everywhere, so
yeah, i've tried lamictal. i got the rash so i can't take that. also can't take abilify, geodon, gabitril, zoloft, or lexapro. that's why he finally put me on depakote, which for a little while worked in combination with all the other crap i'm on - trileptal, trazodone, seroquel and wellbutrin.
i just wish he'd take me off everything and start from scratch. i knew the increase in the seroquel and trileptal would make me more tired. that's the whole reason we reduced it to begin with....it was making me sleep all the time. but then the depression reared up and the thoughts came back. so he upped them again. i don't know, i'm just so sick of taking a cabinet full of meds for no reason.
i don't know if i'll hear back from pdoc today or not. he's off on fridays and his new assistant is not too eager to bother him on his day off. but when i have to check in with tdoc i'll ask her if she'd contact him for me. i don't know though, maybe a lot of sleep is the best thing for me right now. at least i'm safe then.
i'll keep you posted though.
love u
from what I've heard...I think they do that if you go i/p...that way they can monitor you.
God could not be everywhere, so
when he started the lamictal i had had so many bad reactions to all of the other meds he started me out at the lowest possible dose. my dd16 is on it and is responding well to it. i just didn't have the same results.
if pdoc calls me back today i'm going to tell him that's what i want to do. just come off everything and start over. i don't want to go i/p to do it though especially with the eating thing back. i tried toast again with no luck. i don't want to tell tdoc until she's back in town, and not even sure i want to tell her then.
i know where this is all heading and i can't stop it. it's like i said the other night, i know it's for my kids that i need to do this but at the same time it's for them that i can't.
thanks for listening. that alone helps and knowing you are there helps too.
love u
just try to be honest, i know you don't want to, but try.
God could not be everywhere, so
Traci,
Sorry I haven't been able to email you cause of my darn system problems (outgoing email still VERY iffy) and I lost your number when my Outlook went down.
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